Over the last 7 or 8 years I've been trying to block everything out that happened. and for the most part it worked. But the past few months have been tough. I found out I'm pregnant, I'm going to be a single mum, and I'm so terrified that the same things will happen to my child. I'm 16 now. When I just turned 8 I moved home. I met this really nice girl who lived two doors away from me. She was 13. We went to the same school, we spent most days together. After a few months, I'd stayed at her house a couple of times and vice versa. We used to play mums and we'd give birth to my dolls . It was weird but it was how we played. I stayed over one night and she kissed me. I thought she was playing so I thought nothing of it. The next time I stayed she dry humped me. This continued and got more graphic each time. She touched my private area one time. I felt dirty but I didn't know why. It effected my relationship with men and women. I have since grown a sexual preference to women, even though I have little to no romantic attraction. I was also pressured into sex with a 17 year old when I was 13. It wasn't rape. I'd never call it that. But he made me feel guilty until I said yes. Since these two incidents, I've found it difficult to have intimate relationships with people. I usually turn to casual sex. Older men like that so they usually come to me and ask. They offer me money, and gifts. It doesn't feel right when i do it. But I do anyway... But now I've stopped. It's not just my life anymore it's a baby's too... I really don't want them to go through this too.... I just want to know if this is something I should mention to my psychologist...? Was this sexual abuse?