Almost 8 weeks - mini meltdown

[AgentCooper]

I'm at the 7-8 weeks point right now and am having a wee cry today. This is my first pregnancy and it's been stressful due to bleeding but so far early scans look good (so much gratitude to the amazing, kind, deeply human nurses in the EPU).

I've had no spotting these past few days which is brilliant and such a relief. But it's dawning on me today how much things are changing - we're leaving our lovely flat in 2 months to move to a house. Our flat is 10 mins walk from my work whereas I'll need to take the train and subway from the new house. It's ten years this year since DH and I met and started seeing each other and it's striking me that sooner it'll never be just us two again. I feel sad today about so completely leaving my old life behind. I worry about mat leave - will I be lonely, what if I don't click with other mums? What if I'm a crap mum?

Don't get me wrong, this is what I've wanted forever and I think I'm just overwhelmed that it's (fingers crossed, all being well) actually happening. When I saw the baby's heartbeat on the early scan at 6 weeks I cried with relief and love. I'm probably a bit low-key raging too as DH said he'd be back with lunch at 12 and it's now 2 (he decided to take his parents shopping).

Anyone else feel like this?

[Applebite]

Lots of people feel like this,OP. It's all unknown and huge. It would be really odd not to feel nervous and to question everything.

Be kind to yourself, snuggle up with your DP, enjoy your time together. And in 7 months you will have someone else to snuggle!

It changes everything, yes, and it's hard, and you will be tired and you will argue about stupid things like who changed the last nappy. But it's also beyond amazing in ways that are impossible to describe until it's your baby doing it with you - e.g. Mine is now 17 months and currently pointing at pics of herself on my iPad (which she isn't allowed and has helped herself to! ) and saying, "BABY!" And that makes everything worthwhile.

Except the 3am stealth nappies. Nothing makes those worthwhile

[AgentCooper]

Thank you Applebite, that's a lovely and comforting post. Your wee one sounds brilliant It's so obvious that I'm feeling like this today as the spotting seems to have stopped so I don't have that to focus on and my mind just cast about for something else to be worried about!

Another early scan on Thurs due to the spotting and I'm looking forward to seeing the wee fella.

[Applebite]

Fingers crossed that you get a lovely look at the little bean on thu! I had several episodes of spotting too, so I know how worrying it is. But it's actually hugely common and if you've seen a heartbeat that's brilliant.

Oh and you wouldn't be having thoughts about being a crap mum if you weren't going to be a great mum. Only a great mum would worry whether she was good enough!! :)

[AgentCooper]

Thanks Applebite, that's really sweet of you

[Applebite]

Not at all, being newly pg is a totally crazy time and I know for a fact that all my friends had similar thoughts to yours during pregnancy!!

You are going to love this little baby so so much (although don't be upset if that turns out to be a slow burn over a few days rather than an instant rush of tiger love - that's a whole other thread!!), but s/he will turn your world upside down and it's ok to be a bit lost about that from time to time.

This time next year you'll look back and laugh :)

[Toocleverformyowngood]

Oh! I had one of those yesterday.

My baby is due in 5 weeks, I'm moving house & im going to be a single mum. So I had a bit of a meltdown last night!

It's so very normal, before you realise, you'll be so into the routine of your new life, you won't be able to imagine your old one without your child in it

[AgentCooper]

Oh tooclever, you sound bloody heroic. Big love to you and your soon to arrive wee one!