I will be 36w + 4d on Mon and am booked in for a scan to FINALLY decide my birth plan. Due to my age, healer issues, gestational diabetes, AND the baby probably still being breech I will need to be induced or have a c-section. They have refused to talk to me about what each involves and the pros and cons of each until this appointment. I really want to understand more and to have some say myself and know time isn't on my side. I am scared of inductions as the majority of my friends who were induced had horrible labours that ended up either with both mother and baby having a traumatic time, forceps and large tears and cuts or emergency c-sections. Not one had a good thing to say (this is the problem with being an older first time mum! I've heard all of my friends' stories in all of their gory details!). My midwife seems to think that with an induction I'd have a 50% chance of having an emergency c-section, so my gut feeling is to have a c-section. But is that selfish and is it better for the baby to try induction first? I am really anxious and worried. I will obviously ask lots of questions at my scan on Monday but having been fobbed off every time I asked questions before I'm just a bit worried they won't be prepared to answer or let me have a say.
My anxiety stems from having had cancer 4 years ago. I was misdiagnosed for ages, so I don't have total trust in medical professionals anymore and was then told after my chemo that I was left infertile and would never be able to have children. So this is my one chance, miracle baby and I want to do all I can to get him here safely and healthily.
Thank you. X