sj
I hope you are doing well.
You can request to have a C-section and they have to let you one (assuming you are in the UK)
I had an ELCS with my 4th as he was a footling breech.
It was fine. No birth or surgery is without risk so put that aside for a bit and consider an ELCS for your peace of mind
(For me there was no real choice, so in a way that was actually easier).
I had 3 more kids after that, (no twins), all VBACs, again risk factors were present but all was fine so a C-section is not the end of the world.
I've been thinking of you.
Try and enlist some help and write down a schedule that would aid getting ready for school runs.
When I had counselling for anxiety & panic attacks the biggest surprise was that I had a massive problem with time management!
Since I realised that I know that not being organised is a big trigger for anxiety for me.
If you have a schedule in mind, even if you don't keep to it, you will feel better prepared and therefore less anxious about how you'll get everything done.
Check out Bullet Journal (sorry I can't link) - if you need help with that or anything else just PM me.
And ask GP to put you on the waiting list for counselling. It helped me a lot.
All the best & let me know if I can help with anything.