I already have 3 beautiful babies who mean the world to me, I recently found out I'm pregnant I don't have the best support network I never have. I don't think I could face a termination but I can't face having a baby one minute I know what I want the next minute I don't. After having my 3rd baby I suffered with posnatonal depression she's now 20 months I feel like my pregnancy has made me bad again when I had done so well to overcome it. The thoughts I have scare the life out of me.