Being bitter.

[beck3001]

So, I'm probably being a grumpy cow here!

I'm so bitter about people having happy pregnancies, after two miscarriages I'm unable to enjoy actually being pregnant because of the fear of it happening again. I'm currently around six weeks and have my first scan in two weeks as they're monitoring!
Hormones or just me being horrible!
I hate feeling bitter but I wish I could relax and enjoy being pregnant!

I'm not sure if bitter is the right word but I'm in a similar position. I don't actually know anyone who is pregnant but I get fed up of other people being so buzzy and excited about my pregnancy when I'm just worried all the time. Most people don't know about my mc but even those that do still say things like oh are you excited for your scan (no, I'm not. I'm just worried I'll find out its all gone wrong), have you bought anything yet/thought about getting the nursery ready yet (no! It's surprising how many people ask this so early one)

I'm sorry for your losses and it's shit we've had to go through mc and can't even enjoy this one like others can. I hope all goes well for you x

2 MCs and a cp here. Currently 5+3. Not so much bitter but get a rage at 'this time it will be fine' (I'm pretty open about my losses). As if i shouldn'5 worry. I am trying so hard to be positive though. My scan is 29th Dec. FX for us all x

I'm not bitter but I sympathise with the not being able to be excited.
After a MC I'm now 26 weeks pregnant and still cannot accept I am this far. Haven't bought anything, haven't thought of names, worry at the slightest twinge etc. I don't know when i'Il ever be able to just chill and be happy

I'm actually glad I'm not the only one that gets fed up with these things. Sorry to hear of everyone's losses, thoughts of those never go away.
I feel like people don't understand that you don't just get over it. Find myself comparing any issues now with previous pregnancies!
I haven't told anybody yet apart from my partner of course.
But also, congratulations on pregnancies!
I hope at some point we stop worrying and relax a little!

I'm so anxious! I'm 6 weeks today, pregnant after a stillbirth in July at 21+3. I'm going to have a completely different pregnancy experience because I need a surgical procedure at the end of the first trimester to prevent losing this one for the same reason and therefore lots of extra monitoring. I might need bed rest from the second trimester onwards and extra medications. I keep swinging between happy and worried...

Sorry for all the losses, it's such a horrible thing to deal with.

I had a bitter, anxious pregnancy after an early MC and even though it ended happily, my next pregnancy was just as bitter and anxious! I was so jealous of people who were happily optimistic.
No advice I can give you, just know that you are not alone. I tried to relax and focus on the near future but not sure it made much difference tbh. I felt a little better once I could feel baby moving.
Good luck all xx

Totally understandable to be worried and wary if you've suffered a loss (or in your case, two ). I'm 7 weeks pregnant, this is my second pregnancy, I had a miscarriage in July. I've personally come to terms with it all and the possibility I may lose this one too. There always is a risk, whether you've suffered miscarriages or not, so I just try to enjoy it, especially as I think I'll stop at one and this could be my last/only pregnancy. I hope your scan will put your mind at rest and you can enjoy the rest of your pregnancy!

It's totally ok to feel like this, I found it so hard when 3 different couples I knew had a baby the week mine would have been due. I didn't really relax until I could feel the baby moving every day. I have one ds and am pregnant with dc2 and am feeling a lot more relaxed about this one, and able to think 'today I'm pregnant ' rather than constantly looking forward. Good luck with everything

Ps pregnancy kind of sucks for lots of people even without a history of mc. Don't stress about not enjoying it!