Hi all,
I feel I am in such a mess at the moment and don't know what to do.
I've been with my partner for 4 years. 3 of which have been happy and fun. The last year our relationship has struggled. We've tried hard to make things work and talked through a lot of the issues. I had decided in my own mind (probably sounds selfish) to give things until summer and then I would move out if we were still unhappy. I guess I had already started to think I'd be happier if single.
Just as Summer came, I found out I was pregnant. I'd been told I couldn't naturally conceive (another story) so we were both so surprised. I guess the thoughts of moving out were pushed aside.
I temporarily moved back to my parents whilst we had some building work done to our house and was so happy there. The pregnancy has been rough - I've been so sick and tired. My parents have been supportive and I love home so I've felt so happy there and in their company.
The thing is, I came back home - to mine and my partners house and all I've done is cry. I don't feel happy here and I don't know whether I feel happy with him. I love him but I'm not in love with him.
I don't know whether to move out or try give things a go. I dont want to bring a baby into a cr*p relationship and I won't stay in the relationship just for the sake of the baby.. it has to work for both of us.
I think it would come as a huge surprise if I told him I didn't want to be together. Yes we've had the rough year but it's not all been awful.
I just don't know what to do... 