I have this horrible fear of not loving him and how much my life will change and that I will never be myself again. I got with my ex around this time last year and moved in quite quick I was so in love with him he wasn't the best person as he had issues but I was in love and would of done anything for him. We both really wanted a baby and started trying in January and I was pregnant by March. When he found out I was pregnant he got scared and things changed it was like he didn't love me anymore. Anyway I ended up leaving him as he was messaging girls and he got in a new relationship two weeks after. He's now moved her in and there living together they've been on holiday he didn't even have a passport until I sorted it out for him and paid for it ( I sound bitter I know) it's just been so hard for me to find out all this out and go through this pregnancy alone. I didn't think he would just cut us out his life and never speak to us again but he has. I have greats friends and my mum is very supportive. But this isn't how I planned to do it now my due date is getting closer 22nd November I'm scared I won't love him and that I will have ruined my life. I just want to be a good mum and love him unconditionally but still be able to have my life. I never get emotional I never cry I've been strong this whole time im just scared of giving birth and them placing him on me and not feeling anything towards him.
Am I just being stupid? I really hope this is just normal.