Scan anxiety

[Barefootcontessa84]

I have my 12 week scan today - I'll be about 12+5. I know it's silly and the odds are in my favour, because I've already had 6 scans due to a clot (I have bled heavily many times since 6 weeks). The last scan was over a week ago and the reassurance fades fast, especially as i have had fresh bleeding this week. Everything looked ok at 11+3 (growth and hb) but of course today they'll look for any defects etc.

I'm so worried the baby will have died since last week, and if it hasn't, that I still won't be excited becasue my bleeding could continue and cause a late loss.

I don't really know what I'm asking - I'm just stressing out that I have made it this far, but I'll fall at this milestone

Hand holding! I didn't have one scan that I wasn't anxious about for various reasons most people don't have to stress about and wished I could just enjoy seeing our little one, at my last scan I had that feeling everyone else has, that 'gosh that's my baby, look at them!' so I'm wishing that for you today. Make sure you tell the sonographer you are feeling terrified so they can reasure you. X

Thanks Boomies wish I didn't have to wait till this afternoon...