Hi everyone!
So I've found out I'm just about 8 weeks pregnant.. The father is someone I was seeing for about a year but no longer together, it was all a big mess from start to finish and his ex has had his first baby in February.
When I first told him we both agreed it wasn't right for either of us and I was going to get an abortion. I didn't want it, I'd just decided to go travelling and do everything I can and experience as much as possible as I'm only 20 and had been stuck with him controlling me for the past year and now all I wanted to do was go live!
I went to have a consultation at an abortion company and they scanned me to see how far along it was, the second I saw it on the screen I just started crying. I could see its heart beating and all I could think was its mine and I should be protecting it, not ending its life before it even has one!
I told the dad what I thought, he told me he can't do it and I've made my choice and I've trapped him so I shouldn't talk to him again and we haven't spoke since.
Now all I can think is would it be fair on my child? To have a dad that wants nothing to do with it but absolutely adore his other child? Or even fair on him to bring his child into the world when he doesn't want it? And what would it do to my life? Being a single parent at 20? Would I feel like I've missed out on things or would I be so in love with my baby I wouldn't care?
I don't really know what I'm asking here, and I know it's very long but I don't have anyone to talk to and I'd just like to hear other people's opinions.
Thanks in advance :)