Ok this is a long story that I will try to shorten, I'm here due to my big dilemma as I don't know where else to turn.
I'm married to my husband of 2 years have 2 children from a previous relationship ages 6 and 9 my eldest is Autistic and also suffers with ocd and tourettes. The past year has been difficult husband lost his job and since then our relationship seemed to go very downhill arguments daily and he shut me out completely even though I tried my best to be as supporting as I could.
This year it go so bad I had had enough as he had turned very possessive if I went out anywhere and I kind of rebelled against him and shut myself off too. 2 months ago we seperated he moved out to stay with a friend and although we were civil I honestly thought that was it and we were done.
So then came my mistake I suffer from awful anxiety and depression so quite a fee times I invited friends over for coffee as I really struggle to be alone especially of an evening that's when I'm at my worst. One evening a male friend came over to chat and have a drink and after a few hours of chatting and drinking one thing lead to another. I immediately said it was a mistake and I didn't have any feelings for him and we both agreed it was stupid and I wasnt ready for another relationship.
Fast forward to 3 weeks ago when I discovered I was pregnant I had taken the morning after pill but clearly this failed and I was defo pregnant.
I was honest with my husband and sat him down and told him the truth he asked if we could go to counselling and see if we could rectify our relationship and I was in complete shock that he would even contemplate getting together after what I'd done
So now I'm here 6 weeks pregnant living back with my husband babies father wants nothing to do with me or baby my husband can't have kids due to a vasectomy and I don't know what to do my children are difficult at the best of times constantly arguing and with my eldest issues I know I would struggle how do I explain to friends and family the few that know have pretty much dishoned me due to my infidelity and I've tried speaking with my gp he won't prescribe anything for my anxiety which is at its worst. I don't know if I should continue with my pregnancy or end it to save a lot of ppl my husband included heart ache and stress. I'm not looking for sympathy I accept I've done an awful thing but I honestly don't know which way to turn.
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Stressyhead86 · 03/06/2016 09:57
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