Recent NC, have been kicking around a while.
I found out a few days ago that I'm pregnant. I already have a child who is 12 months.
We were planning on TTC a second child within the next year but this has come as such a shock. DC1 is breastfed and my periods haven't come back yet. Obviously I knew there was a risk of pregnancy but stupidly didn't expect it to happen now.
It feels so surreal. I had a fairly straightforward pregnancy first time round but still found it tough to cope sometimes. My labour with DC1 was 3.5 days long, I hated being in the postnatal ward afterwards, I had an episiotomy and an infection... And I just keep replaying it all in my mind and thinking I can't do it again.
But I will have to because I don't want an abortion. And I'm sure I do want this baby on some level, but right now every time I think about it I just feel sick and scared.
I've told a couple of people in RL but I just needed to get this out because I'm not sure people will understand exactly how I'm feeling. DH is in shock as well I think but keeps saying we'll cope, we'll manage. And I know we will, but I am scared as to how 