Miscarriage

[danson16]

Hello, this is the first time I have put anything up so please bare with me.
I have 2 children, 5 and 2 and was expecting my 3rd until I started miscarrying 4 weeks ago. 4 weeks ago I started bleeding and went to A&E who sent me home and told Early pregnancy would phone to book appointment. 2 days later I went in for my scan and they said that although I thought I was 9 weeks, the scan showed a sac and yolk so only around 4-5 weeks.
I was told I had to wait 2 weeks to see if the sac and baby grow. 2 weeks of not knowing was killing me, I knew something was wrong. I was scanned and the sac was now showing empty and was told I needed bloods to see HCG levels and to come back later. While waiting for us to be told to come back in, I received the call from the doctor who told me over the phone I was miscarrying and I had what they think is Adenomyosis so need an MRI, I was devestated to hear this, let alone over the phone.
I went back for a scan this week to see if fully miscarried and they say the sac is still there and has changed shape so I could miscarry on my own or may need D&C but I'm not allowed it until after MRI which thankfully is this weekend. It's just dragged on so long that I feel I can't grieve or move on or anything yet.
Has anyone else been through similar? Or can give me some advice on how to deal with it? I have days where I can't grasp what is happening and other days I can, feel like a complete mess.
Thank you for listening

Last summer I was pregnant. I hadn't had a period for 8 weeks and was sent up early pregnancy unit when I started getting pains.they told me i was 4 weeks gone and the sac was empty. My hormone levels were rising but just slightly off what they should of been. I was seeing them every week for scan, hoping I'd see the yolk. I never did, and it wasn't until about 4 weeks after I first went the EPU that my egg sac had lost its shape.
I opted for a natural miscarriage rather than an op, looking back now I must of been mad- I was literally crawling the walls in pain.

What I am trying to say is, I know exactly how you feel, I knew it was more than likely not a viable pregnancy but I couldn't grieve as the sac was still growing like it should be (7mm a week or something).

My advice is just spend the next few days looking after yourself and chilling out. I know it's really difficult but you'll be able to grieve in your own time after you miscarry or choose the D&C. I found the more I tried to understand it, the more confused I got.

Hope I haven't waffled too much and hope I've helped.

Take each day as it comes.