I found out I was pregnant on 19 March. I'd just separated from my partner but after considering carefully I decided to go ahead with the pregnancy. My partner was emotionally abusive but made it clear he was out of the picture. Regardless he told everyone I was pregnant when I was only nine weeks. This made me anxious but was still excited so booked a private scan so I could see baby and have some happiness from this. Private scan showed no heartbeat. I was back in hospital next day to confirm and was then booked in for d&c due to missed miscarriage. I went to hospital alone and underwent op. The next day my partner turned up at house saying he'd changed his mind we should get back together and have a baby. Several days later he changed his mind again. I still have heavy bleeding and cramps ten days later. Nothing to begin with but started a week after op. I now feel horrendous. I wanted my baby but know it's better to be away from him but feel a lot of attachment to him still. I'm 32 and am struggling to come to terms with this. Emotionally I'm a mess tried to go back to work this week but only managed two days and I'm off again. I feel other ppl don't understand what I'm going thru and get bored with my tears. I literally feel like I don't want to wake up each day. Not only did I lose the baby i wanted and dealt with emotional abuse frim the relationship and his abusive texts. He refused to come to hospital saying it would make him squeamish. Anyone had anything similar. I can't sleep at all