I am being incredibly precious and driving myself crazy!

[Flossam]

I'm about 5 and a half weeks pregnant now. Past the stage where I m/c last time. However, every other day I have a bad day where I feel I have to lie down and not do, well anything really. A couple of days ago I had a couple of spots of bright red blood on wiping. I panicked big time and took to the sofa. In retrospect I think it was due to the vigorous wiping and checking for blood I had been doing which made me sore and caused the bleeding. How pathetic is that?

Yesterday afternoon I had a very small amount of brownish discharge. Nothing more since. I know I had this around about the same time with DS. There is a good chance it was only implantation. Both times I have had cramping, but probably only worse because I am lying there waiting to miscarry. I have been lucky so far that both these times have been my day off work. And I can lie on the sofa and do nothing because DP has been around.

Logically I know that nothing I really do is going to start or stop a m/c. But I am so desperate for it not to happen. I am also worried because my pregnancy symptoms seem to be less so then they were at the weekend. I would expect them to get more so each day? All I really have is slight nausea, metallic taste and sore boobs. I need to chill out because I know I am only making the issue worse. There should be no reason for me to miscarry again, really.

Will this get easier or am I going to be an annoying wimp for the next x amount of weeks or untill I miscarry? I just can't imagine getting to full term with this one.

Hi Flossam
First pg for me so I can't sympathise on the m/c thing, but I know I was a real wimp for the first 3 months of my pg, especially when feeling so sick and tired. I just laid around on the sofa as soon as I got back from work and whimpered while DH ran around after me!
Hope you are being looked after, you deserve it, and hope you get some reassurance too

Poor you, I have just gone through a Ectopic pregnancy and also had a miscarriage in 1999, and I was the same as you through both of my pregnancies with the DDs and this recent one. Can you not go to a EPU to have a scan to reasure yourself? I'm sure you will be able to be referred due to your previous miscarriage.

Aw FLoss, you are putting yourself through the mill, girl!!

Not m/c before so I can't help on that front - but bear these things in mind - when you are pregnant you tend to worry more anyway, whether you have any reason to or not; and during the first trimester it is totally normal to feel not just tired, but completely knackered. I'm 13 weeks pg now and can't believe the difference in my energy levels - I've gone from being unable to drag myself 100 yards down the road to the shop to going out walking for at least an hour each day!

And don't worry about being an annoying wimp (as you put it!) - it is your right as a pregnant woman to complain

Floss!!

I have had to mc in the last year and imnow about 6 weeks pg. I know EXACTLY how you feel, because i am the same way chick!
I check my knickers at every opportunity, i worry myself to death, and i dont even dare think about a baby at the end of it!
Have you been on the pregnancy after miscarriage thread? there are loads of us ther in the same boat. It' terrible, but after a mc pregnancy is a scary place to be!!

Hugs

Flossam!

I had no idea - CONGRATULATIONS!

Am SO happy for you!

Loads of love

Hunker x x x x

I had two m/c, one before having DS1, and one before having DS2. And yeah, the first trimester sucks when you're worried about a miscarriage. But it does pass, when you can feel the baby moving, you know everything's fine, and you can stop worrying, or at least worrying so much.

Oh, and Flossam, it's not precious at all of you to be anxious, never mind "incredibly" precious! It's normal, really, I swear.

I don't actually feel all that tired. I remember with DS I would be asleep on the sofa within about an hour of getting in from work. Another thing to worry about!

If I am honest, I probably did have all this with DS. My memory is not the best, and also DP was pretty awful at the time, and in some ways a m/c didn't always seem to be the worst thing that could happen, as DP was trying to get me to have an abortion. Sounds and feels such an awful thing to say. God I feel an awful mother for saying it.

I think I will go to Gp's end of next week, i'll be 6.5 weeks then, provided I get that far and plead nutterness, see if I can get reffered for a scan. As you say they might take sympathy on me, and 20 weeks is a long time to wait. They won't scan you before 6 weeks where I am now, and TBH I'd rather have to make only the one visit, when the heart should be beating etc.

SGC, how are you feeling now? I did follow your thread and typed things but deleted them. Didn't know what to say . I am sorry.

x posted there. Thanks Hunker!

NQC, thanks for pointing that out. ATM it feels like I will be feeling like this for next 35 odd weeks, but that is indeed somthing to look forward to. Again I feel I have to say as long as I get that far!

Mia, no I haven't been on the thread. I've not joined the ante natal group either. Am too nervous about jinxing it. I've told my work manager (nature of work makes it kind of necessary) and a few of my work colleagues know, as do my bf's, now I feel I should have kept schmum. I'll go and browse the pregnancy after m/c though, as you say, everyone in the same boat. Thanks for that.

To see a heartbeat, you need to be at least 6 weeks, and 7 or 8 is a more likely time.

I know our hospital will give you scans pretty much whenever you like if you've had a mc previously. It's fairly standard.

Thanks for that NCQ. By the time I get reffered it will probably be at least 7 weeks from what I have heard about EPU's on here I would think.

Aw, floss. Look after yourself.

I'm sure everything is fine. Just remeber that not everyone gets all the sickness/tiredness etc.

Do go and see your GP though, as I am sure, given your m/c they would probably refer you to put your mind at rest.

Thanks IGW. Will text you soon, and we'll arrange something again?

I;m ok Floss, thanks for asking, but not go worrying about me, look after yourself

I have more than enough worry for half the board SGK! Its good to share it around!

Be kind to yourself. Worrying is to be expected. How could you not worry once you have experienced a mc? It is also normal to not feel overly tired at only 5 1/2 weeks. You may feel like you have been hit by a train by 7 weeks though so try to take it all one day at a time.

I am typing with one hand as I feed dd2 (10 months) and there were times during my pregnancy with her where I KNEW that I was having a miscarriage but she arrived safe and sound despite my paraonoid delusions. I have had 3 miscarriages (all beyond the 12 week mark) but I also have 4 healthy children so you can do this!

Take a deep breath and imagine a positive outcome everytime you start to feel overwhelmed. One day at a time is all you can do.

Keep posting on here. The mners who have had miscarriages are all brilliant at offering advice and a listening ear.

Ok floss. Now make a cuppa and put yer feet up

I've done better than that IGW - not sure I should tell you but it's yummy, banana split with dark chocolate sauce and glacier cherries!! Save the thought for next tues eh?

Thank you very much Cadmum, it is reassuring to know other people do the same thing.

Well I can only really be a wimp at home, that is my way of justifying it all. I can't be a wimp at work as it isn't fair on anyone. So that means I suppose that I can be doubley wimpey (ohh, I remember those!) at home. I'm just glad to get to the end of another day every day!