long story, short. i'm 47 this year with 3 kids 2 boys from 1st marriage aged 23 & 24 this year. daughter from 2nd marriage 14 this year & sterilised 15 years ago.
killed myself 11 years ago this year (kids taken away due to mental health issues & alcohol abuse) & finally getting back on my feet with my lovely man. we have been together 9 years (xmas just gone).
my gp told me 2/3 years ago that i am perinatal but having missed a period & ultra sore, sensitive boobs & nipples & they are pretty solid, going to the loo more often. yup feels pregnant to me so did a tesco test ** up the 1st one & 2nd was negative but still have that niggly feeling. booked appointment with gp for 19th.
i don't want a baby & neither does his nibs at nearly 53 but i'll not cope with any of the alternatives. maybe it is a way of redemption if i am but i'll be relieved if i'm not. i've just paid over £200 for my Molly (sheep) to have a caesarian to save her & hopefully the lamb. both are now doing well.
i can't ignore this any longer, please help put my mind at rest whatever the outcome