Sorry in advance as this is probably going to be long but I will keep it as short as I can.
12 years ago now I started with a pain in my left hand side that gradually got worse and developed into my pelvic area, when the pain finally got unbearably bad I took myself off to the doctors. As it turned out I had a UTI and was also diagnosed as being pregnant.
5 years later one day I suddenly started with the exact same symptoms and just knew I had a water infection and that it would mean I am pregnant. I took myself off to the doctors who did indeed confirm I had a UTI. I told the doctor that I was sure it was a sign that I must be pregnant due to the only other time I have had these exact same symptoms and a UTI were when I was last pregnant and so asked for pregnancy safe antibiotics. The doctor told me UTI's are very common and that he thought my suggestion was outlandish but performed a pregnancy test anyway. The test came back negative but I still could not shake the feeling that he was wrong, I just felt different somehow. A week later I went and purchased a pregnancy test and it came back positive proving to me that I was not losing my marbles.
When my youngest son was just under a year old I started with the exact same symptoms again, again off to the doctor I trotted. They confirmed I had a UTI but said I would have to do my own pregnancy test if I was convinced it was a sign. I went away and did a first response test, I was unclear on the result so gave it a week and did another, I was very clearly pregnant however I did not continue this pregnancy for several reasons. I do not really regret my decision, it was the right decision at the time but its not something that have ever got out of my head and I have been careful not to end up in this position again. That was 6 years ago.
Anyway roll on last Thursday, I started with mild pain in my pelvic area which progressively got worse and it then it started to hurt more when I went for a pee. I thought nothing of it and decided I was going to see how I went on and if no better by Monday I would go to the doctors. By Friday I was feeling sick (all day) and by evening I was in quite a lot of discomfort and then it started that all telling pain in my side and a light bulb went on and all I could think was 'oh fuck'. My pain continued to get worse as the time went on and also spread to my lower back, I had started taking paracetamol but it was no longer really helping except to take the edge off, by Sunday afternoon I was really struggling so I called 111 and they got a doctor to call me back. The doctor was willing to prescribe me drugs for a UTI over the phone based on what I had said however was adamant in telling me it is "absolutely impossible" for me to be pregnant as the start of my last period was (at the time - sun) only 2 weeks previous and the only time I had had sex had been 2 days after the end of my period - the previous Sat (a week ago not the day before) and I would only just be ovulating around now. In the end she decided to get me to go into the out of hours to see a doctor in person with a water sample as being a Sunday she didn't know which pharmacies would be open to send the prescription to directly.
The doctor I saw has also said that a pregnancy is highly unlikely but he performed a test anyway which came back negative, no shock there it didn't the last 2 times first time round, all that means to me is that my HCG levels are not yet high enough to detect. However the test for a UTI has also come back negative. The doctor says its unlikely to be appendicitis as its the wrong side and that with my blood pressure and temperature both being normal and a lack of discharge it is unlikely to be a pelvic infection so he's stumped. He prescribed me strong painkillers and told me that if the pain worsened through the night to go to A&E or to otherwise go to my own GP in the morning as I may need to be referred to a gynaecologist. My own doctors cannot fit me in until tomorrow. By yesterday the stronger painkillers had stopped working and my breasts have become sore (something I normally get for about 5 or 6 days prior to my period starting except I'm not due for well over a week at least) and I was getting sharp pains on my right side periodically, I struggled through the day and went to bed at around half past 6 but struggled to settle as I hurt. I woke up this morning pain free (apart from my sore breasts) and the sickness has lessened, though as the day as gone on the pain has returned ever so slightly.
I can not shake that feeling that I am pregnant, I have no-one in real life I can confide in and talk to and I am not ready to talk to my partner about it because I don't want to potentially damage our relationship further (its not been great of late) over something that may not even be because I am pretty certain he will want us to have this baby and I'm not sure I can / could, our circumstances are a million miles away from being ideal but at the same time I'm worried I cannot go through with another termination.
If you have made it this far then thanks.
My questions I suppose are:
Is it really impossible for me to be pregnant?
If not is it really impossible to get such strong symptoms so early on when I can only have conceived at best 9 days ago (5 days when symptoms started).
If this is not just some dodgy way of my body telling me I'm pregnant and making me suffer for it then does anyone else know what my symptoms could be indicative of?
I'm really unsure as to whether I should bother with the doctor tomorrow, my symptoms are subsiding and I know I will only be looked at like I am off my rocker again and waiting to do a test at home is killing me, I feel like I need to know. I'm just so confused.