Fed up with it all

[ZanStable]

So I am 20 weeks and fed up with being pregnant and all that goes with it.
I am considered high risk so basically that has meant I am constantly being poked and prodded. So far they have had about 30 tubes at 5-10 ml of blood out of me and of course they want more. I have had three scans and will be having at least 3 more. I feel like a pin cushion. The issue is that I am starting to be so fed up with it all I actually have considered terminating the pregnancy as I am so anxious now I am not happy about being pregnant at all. I do not feel connected to this baby or bump, I just feel tired of doctors,midwives and consultants. The whole thing has made me so depressed, I do not know how to feel more control and less like a science experiment. I just want to know others feel the same I guess as feel guilty about not really wanting to continue carrying this child as it is so much trouble and I am terrified at how much more I have to endure.

Maybe try and see the Drs and nurses as working with you rather than against you? They're not taking your blood for fun, they only want you and your baby to be healthy.

Was the baby planned? Or if not, were you happy to be pregnant initially?

Can you tell us why you are high risk? Ie is it an existing condition or to do with the baby?

Pregnancy is such a small, small part of life and particularly life with a baby. I can tell you are feeling down but a few scans/blood tests doesn't sound particularly awful tbh, unless there's something more you aren't saying!

I really think you should speak to someone (gp or midwife) to get support as you shouldn't be feeling like this. I'm only 15 weeks and am also high risk. I've had 4 scans (although 3 of those were for bleeding, not for being high risk) and lots of blood taken too (some for my medical reasons). I find it an inconvenience but I don't view it negatively. I've got a lot of extra appointments scheduled in and I'd much prefer that I didn't need them, but I am glad I'm getting the extra monitoring. There's no shame in asking for help when you need it. Please, please do get the help you need.