Oversensitive and tearful in late pregnancy...

[primarosa12]

I've been so bad recently... Have my family over for the Christmas break and all I do is constantly snap at everyone and fall out with everyone. I seem to find fault in the smallest things and make the atmosphere unbearable for everyone around me. Then I cry at how horrible I am and how I'm making everyone's Christmas awful. I've been feeling so unwell recently with so much pain due to PGP and carpal tunnel syndrome, not to mention painful Braxton Hicks, that I've been waking up crying from pain every night. Today I snapped again and I couldn't calm myself since. Been crying doe hours and my Dh only got angry with me and said that this is not due to pregnancy (I told him it's hormones) and I'm only using that as an excuse... Now I couldn't give him another explanation why I've locked myself in the room crying rather than spend time with my family,so he got dressed and said he was going to the neighbour's to watch football... And I desperately needed some reassurance and hugs... I feel like I'm the worst person on this planet and I should be far away from everyone now so that I don't make anyone feel bad. I cannot stop crying and only have horrible thoughts in my head... I don't want my family to see me like this but I cannot stop... I feel so lonely and left out too..... I don't know how to calm myself down...

Take some slow deep breaths, you sound so tired, in pain and full of hormones. Late pregnancy makes me feel weepy and vulnerable so you're not the only one! Don't worry too much about spending time with your family at the moment, resting is probably more important. Can you install yourself on the sofa and be looked after by dh and your family instead of the other way around?

I think I'm generating most of my own problems just now but can't seem to stop... DH is out of the house just now and not speaking to me... The more tearful and emotional I get the more angry and withdrawn he seems. He doesn't believe in pregnancy causing my horrible behaviour just now so he wouldn't give me the type of support I wish I had from him... He never dealt well with tears anyway so I have to find a way to deal with my issues on my own. I've put this huge stress on myself and am not able to cope with this very well. I see my family only once a year so wanted this time to be a great experience for everyone but obviously I'm not fit enough to make that happen. I don't even understand why I am so horrible to everyone just now! And then I go and cry in the pillow. This is madness... I hate myself for what I am just now...