Am about to go into labour at any moment as baby is very big, 97th centile and 9lbs already...
DP and I with 2yo DS have not been gettinf on after very stressful year. We have been on the brink of splitting past few weeks with labour on it's way. He is good in the house and with our 2yo but there is zero affection and support to me personally and I am really upset.
Anyway... I have always been aware that he looks at porn on his mobile phone and it doesn't bother me greatly usually BUT having discovered that he has been looking daily for the past week when things have been seriously bad between us, on the brink of a split and I am about to go into labour any minute ...I am extremely upset today and can't stop crying. As it stands I don't even know if I want him at the labour... my mum will be there so I will have someone there for me... but even less do I want him there now... seeing me at my worst and most fragile and vulnerable... he has seen me like that before when I had our first son... but things were good then so it was different. I just feel so angry that he has no heart or investment into making me feel better about our relationship and impending labour that I'm very anxious about with even a cuddle... but he can invest energy into looking at and let's face it probably wanking to porn. It's because I'm not even getting anything from him... I wouldn't mind and would totally understand him looking at porn right now as there's no sex.... if I was at least getting some affection and support from HIM.
Am I overreacting / being unreasonable???