Have a 3 yr old ds and am 9 weeks pg - unplanned. I was happy before but havent stopped crying since i found out. Ii am devastated - selfish i know as many would l love to be in my position. Dont think i can cope with another baby. Had a traumatic birth, pnd and found the relentless boredom and lonliness hard to bear. Have a supportive ds but i an in a black hole. I am also 40 and worried of impact on everything. Midwife supportive, had a counselling session but nothing helping.