I know I am being unreasonable and obviously want to keep them in as long as I can so they need as little help on the on the outside as possible, but I am so utterly fed up and ill, I don't know how I'll cope for another 2 weeks!
I have been sent to hospital twice in the last 2 weeks with suspected pre-eclsmpsia. I have had a headache for the last 5 weeks that won't budge, it's got so bad now that I can't drive because of the visual disturbances. I'm so huge I can't sit down and breathe at the same time, I have to be stood, which causes my SPD to flare up, or laid down, which just makes me feel so lazy and useless.
I have horrendous insomnia, I've slept for maybe 5 hours in the last 3 days (2 hours of that was an afternoon nap yesterday), but I'm exhausted all the time. This is making me snappy with DS, and then I get emotional because I know it's not his fault and I feel so guilty.
I have such bad heartburn and reflux I can barely eat even though I'm on 2 different kinds of medication for it, but even if I have a good day and get it under control I can't eat because there is no room in my tummy any more (I'm 5 foot and carrying 2 +5lb babies and all the extras that go with them).
My consultant won't give me a date for an induction until my next scan which is 12 days away, so I have don't even have an end date to aim for as such.
I'm so so so sick. I don't know what to do.
So sorry for the long, rambling and self indulgent whiney post. I know I should be grateful I've had a relatively problem free pregnancy and the babies are healthy. Someone give be a slap (or some coping strategies) please!