Dear lovely, lovely mumsnet,
Had some very sweet pms asking how I was getting on and just wanted to say things are ok. After some posts earlier this week and talk with therapist agree not helpful to keep seeking reassurance - desperate as I am for it!! Especially as even when I see experts who tell me risk teeny if existent all I want to do is work out numerical risk and seeing as no one even knows what the average risk of having a child with an additional challenge is no idea how I'd work out how much I'd increased it! Wish wish wish could get excited and happy and feel as lucky as I always thought I would to get here but for whatever reason it's not worked out like that so think just need to accept the anxiety and take the best care of me and the baby for the next twelve weeks. Thank you all so so much for your help and support. Staying on mn under different name and only posting when feeling alright with that name so whole thing doesn't become gloom fest!!! Thank you thank you thank you and good luck and live to you all xxxxx