Have changed my name as just so at my own behaviour!!
For some reason this month i have talked myself into believing that i could be pregnant even though it is very unlikely based on the facts and even though I am not actually trying to TTC.
Its like I decided almost immediately upon the alleged "conception" and have been imagining/obsessing over every physical symptom I have felt every day since even though I know its too early to feel symptoms anyway and even though my obsession means I have noticed that I didn't really seem to experience noticeable ov this month. But b/c I am not TTC and usually don't pay much heed I am aware that every feeling is probably very normal and something I feel/experience every month just usually I don't pay attention. I am not due on until 1/12 but have bought cheap tests and have actually tested more than once (negative of course!)
The thing is that my logical head tells me there is no way I am pg. But I can't stop obsessing about it and have wasted the best part of the last week thinking about it!!! I have hardly got anything done, its quite awful. I mean i pretty much KNOW that I am highly unlikley to be pg but can't control myself anyway?.
I mean I would probably be happy if I was pg but in some ways I know its not quite the right time for us to have another child yet - so in that case, why am I acting like a loon?? I have not told DH of my madness and nor will I (unless of course I got a positive test - look, there I go again!!)
I have decided I never ever want to have unprotected sex again anywhere in my cycle if this is what it does to me. Why am I acting so demented? And why is this demented behaviour so common in otherwise sane women??