One thing after another - I'm not ready for this!!

[Bex174]

I've currently just turned 33wks pregnant with DCDA twins and all had been going pretty well with just a few pregnancy niggles until the Bank Holiday

In the early hours of Friday morning I suffered a threatened early labour - full contractions every 10mins which landed me in hospital for a few days. Luckily all the contractions stopped with a bit of help after about 4hrs and that has been lovely and settled the past days, not even the murmur of a Brixton hicks!

I had doses of steroids to help the twins lung development just in case but when I was discharged, even though I had a positive fibrinomectin test and a slight narrowing of the cervix they seemed pretty happy with how everything was going and jokingly said they'll see me at 38wks for an induction after this practice run.

Today I went for what I thought would be a regular growth scan, to be told there's low liquor volume for both twins with a tailing off of the growth curves, suggesting intrauterine growth restrictions might be kicking in (both currently around 3lb mark). I have another scan next Tuesday and if the growth is still showing a slow down, which my cosuotant felt strongly would be the case, I'll be meeting my twins early next week, at just on 34wks...

For some reason even though I had the early labour threat over the weekend the news today has come as a shock to me and I'm currently going through every emotion under the sun, except euphoria, I'm still waiting for that one to kick in!

I started out really angry, but I dont know who or what I was angry at? I just felt randomly angered! Then as I was waiting for a fetal heart trace I started to get teary eyed and had no idea why. Then when I was on my way home I just started bawling my eyes out but again I don't know why!! My other half keeps asking how I feel and all I can honestly say is, I really don't know.

I Just feel now like I'm on a roller coaster and not sure how to slow it down. I don't know how I am supposed to be feeling? My emotions are everywhere and I'm just at a loss of what to do. I'm totally not like this normally, I'm usually so chilled out and just wing things, even in the face of adversity.

How has anyone else coped with this type of thing? Is there anything at all that made you feel prepped and just a bit more settled, or is this something that does calm down in the next days when it sinks in a bit more?

I dont know how you are supposed to feel op. I dont think you should feel any particular way! All your emotions are understandable given that you will be having twins soon.
Good luck.

I don't think anyone with any pregnancy is ever prepared to actually have their baby/ies. I know I haven't been, even when I was in slow Labour for 18 days with DD, I still wasn't prepared for it for the contractions to finally start up and not stop after a couple of hours, to dilate much quicker etc. it's a scary thought so God knows why I'm on number 3 but so worth it. good luck

Thanks guys :)

I'm sure it's probably just the hormones all talking together as well as a bit of a shock today.

Just finding it difficult to explain all this to my other half as well, especially as all I can say is "I don't know why I feel this way!"

He sat me down earlier to chat about it but because I couldn't explain anything and he's had a pretty rough afternoon at work afterwards, all I could do was get teary eyed about everything and it culminated in him telling me to just pull myself together and do I not think he's also feeling pretty stressed too! I know he only meant for the best but jeez, it made me feel so stupid...

So difficult, and so typical. I was only saying to people last week how well everything was going and how much I'm looking forward to meeting my twins. Just wish the little blighters didn't take what I said so literally!

My friend had her identical twins at 29 weeks... She went in one day for a scan, the lady left the room, came back asked her when she's last eaten and said they would be delivering today! Now that I can imagine being a huge shock! Lol Anyway they are both great now after a initial hospital stay and are now lovely, happy 1 year olds... I'm sure it is scary to think that you'll meet them sooner than you thought, but I don't think you're ever truly ready! You'll be fine...

And even single babies (not twins) can be premies. Be kind to yourself.

I had a similar experience with my twins. Went in for a routine scan at 34 weeks and twin1 had no amniotic fluid at all. They admitted me straight away and gave me steroids with the plan to monitor the babies and deliver them in 48 hours. The next afternoon I started having contractions and they were delivered within 2 hours weighing 5lb4 & 5lb8. They spent 2 weeks in scbu and twin1 needed antibiotics due to lack of fluid. Both were healthy but on the small side.

I am usually a worrier but strangly I was extremely calm and focussed. Your hormones are all over the place, be kind to yourself and good luck :) Feel free to pm me if you want to chat.

My dcda girls will be 3 in September, having twins is wonderful!