Hi,
I'm feeling really low and need a shoulder to cry on.
I tested on Friday, 5 days after missed period but it was negative.
By then i had really convinced myself I was pregnant, I even had symptoms, so the disappointment was huge.
I couldn't stop crying. I cried for a long long time, the pain I felt was something I can't possibly explain. I didn't know until then how much I wanted it. (I don't even know why i was thinking i was pregnant to be honest, i messed up with the pill, but only had unprotected sex once in the following days!)
The problem is my husband does not feel the same at all. He does not want another one, not now not never. Hearing how relieved he was after the test really got to me. He's happy with our little one but he's made up his mind.
I feel like this is the end for me, there's nothing to be happy about, nothing to look forward to. I know I should focus on our little one and enjoy spending time with boy, which i do, but i know a baby would make our life perfect.
I don't even know if all this makes any sense to you but I feel the lowest I've been in a very very long time.
Apologies for my English, hope what I've written it's not confusing
Thanks for your time