I am expecting baby #3, and my other two are 2 and 7 months so all pretty close together. I really wanted them close together and am happy to get the horrible pregnancies all over with in a short few years so we can enjoy life again but having kids really, really changes your life and I have moments recently (I have terrible morning sickness so that's not helping) where I feel a little bit down that we will never have freedom again.
But I do rationally think that 3 yrs from now, life will start to get a lot easier. I am happy to do lots of bringing them places and have my life fairly taken over by them timewise, but sometimes the monotony of all the 'no don't do that' and wondering if they will sleep all night and stress at the thoughts of heaving not 1, not 2 but 3 small kids into the car and packing all the crap they need makes my blood run cold. Is it just me?
I guess all those bad things will slowly get easier and I will get to see them play together and support each other for the rest of their lives which of course makes it worth it but I have really lost a sense of self since #1 arrived due to working full time (from home) within weeks of each birth, while either breastfeeding or pregnant (and sick as a dog) and also minding the kids on my own a lot because hubby is knee deep in a new career (that I fully support and am proud of him for doing). When I stopped bfing my 2# fairly recently I suddenly felt so well, in control and so happy seeing her playing with #1 I thought it was time to have #3. I can't wait to feel that sure of myself again once #3 is 6mts old hopefully.
Its all such a learning curve and so, so intrusive on your life being a mother. But I do think I will get to be myself again once #3 settles in right?