Devastated and scared

[foodtech]

Hi, just need to vent and see if anyone else has been in the same situation. Basically I'm 7+1 weeks pregnant. This has been a long road. We've been TTC for 6 years and in that time have had 1 miscarriage at 5 weeks (4.5 years ago) and 2 failed cycles of IVF. I've got low AMH and really poor egg quality which at my age is very unusual. (32) currently on the waiting list for donor IVF. Basically this pregnancy was a total surprise and we've been so happy yet terrified at the same time.

On Monday I had an early scan due to some bleeding and they couldn't see anything. Also they did a blood test and HCG was at 900. Re-test today which I'll find out about this afternoon. I've not got any hope as still got light bleeding but no obvious cramps and no heavy bleed yet. Has anyone had a positive result in this situation? I don't want to get my hopes up as know the likely scenario is that I'm miscarrying but scared that it's ectopic or I'll need an operation if I don't miscarry naturally.

I feel like my body is just useless. I can't get pregnant, can't stay pregnant and now can't even miscarry properly. Ok I know that is dramatic but just gutted and feel life is so unfair.

Didn't want to just read and run - I guess the answer really lies on how your blood hcg levels are today?

Best of luck OP x

I hope your HCG is up today. It must be gutting. I am sorry.

Foodtech this exact thing happened to me last lmp 5.1.15 found out i was pregnant on the 19.2.15 had tested previously with BFN. Started bleeding on 21.2.15 went for a scan on 24.2.15 nothing visible. Had bloods they were 500ish tested again 48 hours later they were 1100 ish. Went back a week later saw the yolk sac which put me at 5 weeks. Went back at the beginning of this week saw the heart beat. It turns out i had ovulated alot later than i ever have.

I hope you also have a positive experience.

Thanks everyone. That sounds positive halestone. I'm just so scared and due to it taking so long I cannot even imagine staying pregnant and having a baby. I had already prepared myself for donor IVF and everything that entails so getting a natural pregnancy has totally thrown me. I'm a nervous crying wreck right now.

I was exactly the same and told the EPAU i have a terrible feeling about the pregnancy. The worst thing is waiting for the blood test results i think. The midwife explained to me that as long as theres a 60% rise in 48 hours then thats a good sign. She also said that you can't see anything on scan till HCG reaches 1700.

Similar experience, went for an early scan, they couldn't see anything and expected it was a miscarriage but they couldn't confirm or rule out ectopic. Bloods were taken at 48hr intervals and doubled. They re-scanned the week later and saw a yolk sac etc. and heartbeat! Turned out I had been bleeding due to some clotting that formed when the embryo implanted.
Now 28 weeks+3 and all going well. Hope it works out for you.

Not looking good unfortunately. Tiny rise which now means they can't rule our ectopic but means will not be a viable pregnancy. Just really hope HCG falls and I don't need an op. Thanks.

Oh OP that is terrible news. So sorry and please look after yourself

Foodtech, i am so sorry, i hope you have got plenty of RL support. Take it easy on yourself and give yourself time to heal

I'm sorry foodtech. That must be devastating. I hope it's not ectopic at least. Please take care of yourself. Don't worry about next steps (donor IVF etc) until you feel stronger.

Thank you everyone. Think today will be a day for couch and chocolate I think.

Hi foodtech.

I really don't want to raise your hopes but wanted you to hear my story.

I found out I was pregnant but wasn't sure how long fine I was as wasn't expecting a pregnancy.
Went for a scan nothing on there and levels 119
Went back 2 days later bloods were 149
Obviously nothing on scan told a mc and to coke back.
2 days later another blood test showed 190 and they were worried about ectopic.

Forward a few weeks with levels nit even doubling I had a scan and there were 2 hearbeats. Which resulted in 2 healthy babies.
At the time I googled so much and it isn't uncommon not to double in hcg