Anxious because of previous miscarriages

[mrsthoree3009]

Hello
I am approx 8 weeks pregnant and am so wanting to feel excited but because I had a miscarriage july 2014 (11weeks), a miscarriage feb 2013 (6weeks) and in sept 2012 we found out our baby had a cyctic hygroma so had to perform a emergency termination :( I had to give birth to her and then have a funeral.
I have two healthy children (6 & 11) from a previous partner. But with my husband we have been trying for years, only to be left with heartache over and over again :(
I phoned the hospital when we found out this time hoping they would have me in for an early scan to reassure us this time round but I dnt have an appointment for booking in appt untill the 17th when I will be around 10weeks.
How can I stop myself worrying? ? Literally every time I go to the toilet I check for blood when I wipe :(
Expecting the worse but praying for the best this time..... thankyou for reading xx

Hey, obviously this is an anxious time for you. I have an MC too, there are 2 topics on this board for pregnancy after MC, lots of lovely ladies in the same position as you who are available for internet hand holding. Could you get a private scan to reassure you? Xx

Hi thanx for your response. What are the groups called?
I didnt even think about a private scan...I will investigate thanx x

Thankyou. I am googling it now. after every loss I felt increasing guilt for my husband because it would have been his first baby. He is a great step dad to my children but still craves for his own. We did have checks done on both of us after we lost our first in such a horrific way, and there was nothing in our genes or dna that caused it. We have only told my mum this time because we are scared of another loss :( xx

Does your nearest hospital have an EPU (Early Pregnancy Unit)? Might be worth trying to contact them as they can do scans from about 6 or 7 weeks, and are likely to given your history.

I was in a similar position to you and carried pads around till about 25 weeks. So stressful, all that worrying.

Hope it works out for you, best wishes

Agree with blackbetty, and the last hospital we were near allowed you to self refer to their epu department. They can advise if you give them a call x

I have just phoned the early pregnancy unit but was told they cant do any early scan unless im bleeding or having pain :/ I cnt afford a private scan so guess il just have to continue to worry :(
Thing that really pees me off is after we lost our 1st they told me if I get pregnant again they would take extra care and support. 3 more times later and still sat here worried. Grrrrr!!!

I'm not recommending it, but a couple of ladies I know in a similar situation have said they'd go to a&e and feign a couple of symptoms if need be.

Unfortunately that feeling and knicker - checking goes on for ages! It's horrible isn't it? I found even early scans dint work ... a day or 2 later I was the same as before until after the time of my loss was well and truly passed.

The mn threads are super. Use them. They kept me sane ish.

Im now just counting down the days until I go for my booking in appt and pray they give me a scan to ease my mind! And of course to wait for the 12 week scan. With the MCs the furthest we reached was 11weeks so the 12wk scan will be our milestone! Just want to be excited already. Im starting to show a bit aswell, even my daughter, whos 11 so not clueless, said to me today are you getting fat or are you pregnant lol xx