I am currently 16 weeks pregnant with 2nd baby. Ds is 3. Dh did not want any more children and after ds was such a difficult baby I too did not want any more. Then a year ago I decided I did want a second child and I spent 6 months trying to persuade dh. He finally agreed and we started ttc but after 2 months I decided that my work was too full on and a baby was off the cards. Then found myself pregnant by accident . The last 3 months have been shit. I am tired and queasy, my bp is low .I can't work full time, my training is suffering and this will go on for the next 4 months due to the physical nature of my job . Then I have 6 months of a screaming baby and sleepless nights to look forward to before going back to work and attempting to combine a stressful career with sleepless nights and a weekend with 5 am wakes and monotonous days of building towers.
What the fuck have I done? Dh has taken ds out to give me a break and I have eaten a large bar of chocolate and still feel miserable.