Determined to doom my happiness

[ImpatiencePersonified]

So, on the 17th of Jan, I pee on my First Response thingy, not really expecting anything because, you know, this has been my routine for a year only to see a faint line appear after about half an hour!
I discounted it because it was past the 3-10 minute mark and thought, "you know, I'll do another on Monday, that'll sort me out" and I did and it was an undoubted positive which bounced up within a minute..... cue much happiness.
I it straight after with a Clearblue just to be sure and it said Pregnant 1-2 weeks, checked last week again (just in case I was having a breakdown) and the bugger said 2-3 weeks.. all is going well and it means I'm probably about 5 weeks into a very long journey BUT
WHY OH WHY OH WHY AM I READING ABOUT MISCARRIAGES?

Seriously, its like I want to jinx my own happiness. I have very mild sore boobs and so far that's my only symptom but I'm ONLY 5 weeks, and from what I've read that's not too unusual...

is it?

Would someone please just bitchslap me and tell me to be happy.

Congratulations!!!

Consider yourself bitchslapped!

Seriously though, I was exactly the same, it just doesn't seem real does it? Something that you want so much! I'm now 12 weeks and have my scan tomorrow and it still doesn't seem real! I booked myself in for an early scan at 6+5, which was so reassuring and I have no idea how I would have coped if I hadn't ad that, it's just so long to wait until the 12 wk scan!

Try to relax, revel in your hurty boobs (also reassuring) and congratulation yourself on making a baby!

I thnk we read so much about people's fertility problems we all thnk its really hard & will never happen to us. Plus, given you've been trying for a year you'd be forgiven for thinking it'll never happen.

My advice: don't pee on any more sticks. 2 is enough to see your weeks have increased.

Just hold your nerve for a bit, let it sink in & relish the sore boobs (it does lessen after a while).

*congratulate, obvs.

Thank the baby jeebus for you ladies....

I can't believe I'm being so irrational but I reckon I'm gonna go for one of those early thingys birchwoods... sounds like just the joy.

Also

I genuinely don't understand how my ladybits can accommodate an actual person.

It is all very odd isn't it?

Also, my spelling today... pffffffffffftttttt... awful

soz

You're doing it because it is human nature. It isn't really going to help, though, probably just make you more anxious. That won't really hurt anything, but it won't help.

Just having sore breasts at 5 weeks is pretty standard.

You got it geeky... its like I need to have something to worry about, which is mental, because generally I don't really panic.

I reckon I'll feel better when I have more symptoms... and then I'll hate them and want to kill my husband and THEN I'll be normal

Tbh I've been generally quite calm & rationale the two times I've been pregnant & don't subscribe to a load of the worries that others do (I still have the odd drink) but both times I've found it hard to get my head round the fact that the only proof you have is a line in a stick until your 12 week scan. You're being entirely normal, don't worry!

Oh I was POAS every day for at least 3 weeks, I had a boatload from EBAY.
They weren't even showing a positive at first (despite Clearblue going up in weeks, and FRER's with positives coming out of my ears)

I even took pictures of my BFP's incase they disappeared!

Knicker checking, POAS, googling, it's all normal.

Before my 8 week scan I was shitting it, baby was fine.

12 week scan shitting it, baby was fine.

Even now at 15+1 I am sitting here worrying why I haven't felt kicking today.
Probably because I am 15+1 and not 25+1

Once I am 25+1 I will no doubt worry about how much kicking I should be feeling.

It's all part of the pregnancy fun! But one thing I will say, what will be will be, no amount of worrying googling will change that.

Jaffakake- both times I've been genuinely shocked to see a baby at my scan! Despite not having a period for 14 weeks, 4 positive pregnancy tests, sore boobs, sore back and throwing up 3 times a day for a month!

Your ladybits don't accommodate a person-the baby takes over your WHOLE body!!!! It's like alien!

It's a vain attempt to inoculate yourself against disaster.

Unfortunately you'll never completely get over it, because as long as you live you'll worry about your dc (although in time it'll take up less constant head space).

And eventually you'll start to worry about their dc, and if you live long enough their dc's dc . My poor grandmother finds herself in the position of worrying about her dc's dc's dc's dc...

Sorry. Not much help am I

See, rational women... that's all I needed.

I've been flapping at hubs for days now and all he can do is blink profusely before those cow eyes of his get all gooey with baby thoughts.

Just to be very very sure though... the fact I only feel a tiny bit pregnant is ok isn't it? I hear all these glamorous stories of puking and sleeping for decades and I wonder why I'm sat here relatively normally.

I dare say my sphincter will lose weight during all this... as you said number 3 you spend a lot of time bum twitching.

I'm reading about ectopics constantly scaring the life out of myself and it's driving my family crazy.

I think our minds work over time when pregnant it's where an unnerving time. I don't know how anyone relaxes.

Hoping my scan on Thursday actually had good news.

Try and be happy!

Cheesus sleepy NEVER become a counselor!!

Or you Nicky I DONT WANNA BE SIGOURNEY WHATS-HER-CHOPS! (her name sounds like another name for your foof anyway)

Oh I'm with you clueless!

Although with me its the missed miscarriage thing, just cant shake it out of my brain...

I may need biscuits, or cake.... or both.

I think my pukking started around week 7. And boy did it start.
Nipples were sore on and off until becoming very sore around week 8, that's faded a bit now, meh maybe I'm just used to it.

MMC was my major worry too, kept thinking I'd have a scan and nothing would be there.

3 pregnancies here and never a twinge of sickness and only tired when 30+ weeks. Didn't go off any food or drink either. But you are early for all of that anyway.

It's because we know too much and all the info is there for the reading. I am reacting exactly the same way but I do have two miscarriages behind me this year so I know why I'm so paranoid.

My advice would be to step away from the internet (difficult I know seeing as we are communicating using just that lol).

I do feel like someone has been at my nipples with sandpaper, but then, I've been sanding down a bureau so wondered if that was my just being mental.

again..

sigh

Gonna be a long 8 months if I don chill the fuck out

Oh yes MMC is my biggest fear right now as I'm approaching 9 weeks so past my ectopic paranoia and past the gestation off two early miscarriages.

In the name of the wee man, why cant I spell?

In my last post, replace my with me, and then I sound normal.

sebs its orrible this worrying, I wish their was a doorbell in there that you could tell them to push if they were ok.

With ds1 I wondered what women moaned about - this pregnancy lark was easy, I felt fine and absolutely normal...until 9 weeks! Then I threw up every hour until 35 weeks when it stopped to be replaced by crippling spd!
Enjoy these weeks of your "secret" while you still feel like a human, symptoms may well kick in and it might not last! Congratulations!

Aww thanks our Santa