im so fed up of feeling like this

[redbullbloodandbump]

just beacause i have eaten and i dont feel sick today im convincing myself something has happened, im just over 9 weeks now and suffer from depression and panic attacks about death not hurting my self but allways scared that im going die or something will happen to dp or ds,

my midwife knows this and is refering me to special midwife about it all, god i hate feeling like this im so stressing about it,
at 7 weeks i had a little bleed and had a scan done at the EPAU and they did pick up the babys heart beat,
i just need some reasurance as i cant speack to dp or my mom anout it as they get angry at me and tell me im being silly but i cant help it its like a stuck record in my head

Sounds like your 'inner critic' is on a role. A therapist once said to me, if someone was walking around behind you all day saying 'you're crap, you're doing a bad job etc etc' what would you do? My answer was, turn around and tell them to f*@k off. Try to do the same to your inner critic.

Morning sickness comes and goes as does sore boobs and lots of other symptoms, please try not to worry. If the EPAU have picked up a heartbeat that is a very good sign indeed. I know it's impossible not to worry but try and stay calm for your own health and for the baby.

Hope you feel better soon.

thankyou, just spoke to my mom she was not impressed and said "take the bloody needle of the record then" just trying to ocupy my mind with other stuff

Redbull, I read recently that if there is a heartbeat detected after bleeding the pregnancy is 90% likely to continue - I know it is hard and I think most people feel the same until 12 weeks or so (I certainly do)- just some people are better at covering it up. I am also 9 weeks and some days I feel dreadful (sick /sore boobs) and others I feel human - I think this is normal so please don't worry. Certainly talk to your midwife - it could be depression caused by those pesky hormones and they can suggest ways of making it better. Thinking of you as you sound so upset.

Redbull, sorry to hear you're feeling rotten. BIG HUGS!
It's not much consolation I know, but I too have issues with anxiety/depression and am going through a similar thing.
I feel like an eternal pessimist, convinced something has gone wrong or is going to, I lose sleep for worrying and stressing about everything.
I too had an early scan (at 6 weeks) and saw heartbeat, today I have my dating scan and I'm terrified something bad has happened since. Everyone I talk to just tells me to stop being silly, only wish I could.
Best of luck with everything and I hope, in time, you can relax a bit more.

Oh, Redbull, I'm so sorry to hear that you're feeling this way. I can't really add anything to the reassuring posts that have been made already but would like to say that you can always come here to 'sound off' or talk about stuff if you don't feel you can turn to your mum or partner.

Thinking of you and sending you a virtual hug.

thankyou everyone for beins so kind

just had my appointment come through its for 30th oct it was the 23rd but had to change it as it will half term.

Really looking forward to this appointment as i will be able to get it all of my chest