After trying for just under a year I fell pregnant. DH and I thought we wouldn't be able to conceive again so were absolutely delighted.
However, since then I've just felt miserable. I was so sad when I thought we couldn't have any more babies and I'm completely aware of how lucky I am, both to have DS and to have this chance at an other child but I just feel so sad and worried. Most of this worry is down to my concern that the age gap between this baby and DS is just too big and they're both going to lose out as a result. This feels especially raw as we'd discussed giving up trying to conceive and were looking at the benefits of keeping our family as it was.
So as not to drip feed I had a pretty difficult pregnancy and traumatic birth with DS and although this pregnancy has been a whole lot easier I've had morning sickness and other recurrent niggly complaints.
Not to be misunderstood, I really do want this baby, I just don't understand why I feel so sad.