I am currently 6weeks +4days pregnant and i am struggling with my diet. My past anorexia has always stayed with me in the back of my head and never really flared up with my previous 2 pregnancies however i fear it may be cropping up in this one! I am not sure if it is due to not wanting people to know until 14weeks or if it is the illness coming to light again. I have always been concious of my weight but each time i have fallen pregnant i have used it as an excuse to eat all the yummy things i never allow myself to usually! his time however i dont seem to be allowing myself what i want! If i eat too much it plays on my mind and i end up worrying myself to the extent where i am physically sick. At first i thought this was morning sickness and in all fairness in a morning it actually is as i havent eaten anything to worry myself about but throughout the day i will make myself whatever it is that i fancy but i will feel so full that i am actually sick, i must add that i do NOT make myself sick as i would never do anything to harm my unborn child, children are everything to me and i have always enjoyed being pregnant. This pregnancy was actually planned, my previous 2 were very happy unplanned pregnancies, not actually finding out i was pregnant with my second until 20weeks gone. With my first pregnancy i gained 4stone which by no means bothered me one bit and i was back to my per-pregnancy weight within a month to 6weeks, with my second i didnt gain much at all so it wasnt difficult to again return to my pre-pregnancy weight! This pregnancy however i am terrified of gaining 4stone again, i dont know why but i always get paranoid as to what people may say. People saying i "look well" in my mind means you have gained alot of weight. I know to some this may sound rediculous and part of me thinks i am being rediculous but i dont seem to be able to get my head around it this time! I havent had my booking in appointment as yet but i will be open and honest with my appointed midwife, who i am hoping will be the same one which took me through my previous pregnancies! Has anyone else suffered this and how did you get around it. I think once people know i will be in a better mind frame andi will do all i can to eat healthily and gain a decent amount of weight. According to the preg apps i should be gaining 40lbs in total as my weight is low at the moment and i have actually lost 2lbs in the last week which to me doesnt sound good as it now puts me at 7st10lbs. I am 29years old! 40lbs to me sounds daunting at the moment but i am hoping this will fade!