Wanting to be left alone

[keelyboo]

I am 8+3 with my 4th baby and quite frankly OH is driving me insane, that's quite awful isn't it?
I want space I want to slob on the sofa feeling tired and sick in peace and quiet no I don't want cuddling or endless cups of tea or toast I want to be left alone!!
Im a horrible person aren't I?
This is a new "symptom" on me I never felt like this with the other 3 and its making me miserable, ive tried explaining to him that I don't feel up to anyone constantly in my face when im trying to have some quiet time I have a cuddly 3 year old so honestly by the end of the day im at my limits because obviously I cant push the 3 year old away.
OH is angry that im not happy he just thinks im not happy about the baby, ive tried explaining I feel tired and sick and I aknowledge im a grumpy madam at the minute but I do not have the energy for jumping with joy, im over the moon we are having a baby but right now its taking all my energy to deal with the house and kids and the 25+ miles a week walking of school/nursery runs that I don't have the energy for going out or watching films or sitting up late chatting, I want my bed and don't want him laid all over me.
Preparing to be told im horrible and need to get a grip, wish I could!!

You are not horrible. I'm exactly the same. I'm soooo ratty and everything DH does annoys me to the point where I have to comment on it. There are (rare) moments where I'm feeling a bit more like myself I have apologized to him because I do feel sorry for him. Luckily he is taking it all in his stride. He knows that I'm just incredibly tired, sensitive and hormonal at the moment.

Perhaps when you have a day or even a moment where you are feeling a bit better or a bit more positive have a word with DH and just reassure him.

Thank you, I have explained to him and tried to reassure him its not just him that's driving me mad, tbh the only person who doesn't make me want to chop of my own head is my best friend. Struggling more I think because I never felt like this with my others, I did explain to him aswell I spend all day trying to hide how im feeling as no one but my best friend knows yet, and trying to keep things on an even keel for my children that I think I just take it all out on him and it isn't his fault well it is but it takes two lol as I know I don't have to hide feeling sick tired and grumpy around him so he is literally copping the lot, but then he tells me hes worried about our relationship because I don't want to be all cuddly and it just causes an argument, I don't want to sit cuddling all evening I just want to sleep.