too scared to hope, need positivity etc etc

[Debbylou]

I am currently 6+3 wks pg this is my 5th pregnancy one successful resulting in my tiny terror 2.5 yrs ago, the problem is I am just too scared to hope that this baby will stay even though I have usually lost symptoms and started spotting by this stage, I am taking 75mg aspirin daily plus a prenatal vitamin , have good strong symptoms and lots of bloating , got the midwife booking apt on Friday which will put me at 7wks, just can't imagine getting to Friday unscathed let alone the first scan, how on earth do I stay positive and hopeful with so much fear and doubt in my mind

I can offer you a hand to hold even though my situation is different.

I found out today (I'm only 3+3) and this will be my third pregnancy. My first ended in a termination when I found out the baby had chromosomal abnormalities. My second gave me my DS. Then I got breast cancer when he was 14 months old. I had chemotherapy and I didn't know if I could get pregnant.

I have no idea how damaged my eggs were by the chemo. I know the risks for me of having a miscarriage are much higher now. My risk of having another pregnancy like my first is also high, so I'm going to have to go through lots of testing again.

I honestly don't know how to stay positive but right now, I'm trying. I'm trying to focus on the fact that right this second, I am pregnant. I've set myself a goal to only think ahead to next week, when I'll do another ClearBlue digital test and hope the numbers are higher.

Can you do something like that? Tell yourself that right now you are pregnant and set a little goal to 'worry' about and don't let yourself think beyond that. It could be a goal to get to your booking in appointment. Then you can pick something new to aim for.