Feeling depressed and ugly

[Estrella1]

Apologies for depressive rant, but I need to be heard.
I feel awful when I compare myself to girls at work. They all look so nice and dress nice clothes while I am in my terrible maternity clothes bought on super sale in Primark.I know that there are nice clothes like Seraphine, but I can’t justify or afford spending so much on clothes which I’ll throw away in 3 month. I also started to gain weight and eating chocolate all time. I used to be pretty, but now I feel like I am Cinderella. I can’t accept my new body.
I know I am awful and ungrateful and immature (so I am told by everyone who hears that) ,but I cant keep hiding my feelings.
Recently I looked at baby stuff which we bought and felt really angry, like why I have to spend money on such things when I could have bought something for me.
I feel like there is something wrong with me, like there is a fault. I feel awful.

how far gone are you hun

I felt exactly the same at work when I got pregnant right up until maternity leave

one thing that did help though was I bought dresses I would usually buy but in a lot larger size than I normally am and that really helped in me feeling like I was still me

when I bought maternity clothes I felt they made me look bulky and horrible and I looked completely different than what I usually looked like and I got to a stage of how am I going to cope for months feeling that way

however once I bought these 5 dresses I have alternated them every day worn with leggings....worn without leggings when sunny and everyone has commented saying how nice I look throughout the pregnancy and how I don't luk thrumpy like many ladies who end up buying maternity stuff which to me makes you look bigger than you are for a start

Also throughout the pregnany different weeks mean different hormones and different feelings some weeks I have felt very down and struggled with my emotions and some weeks I feel absoulty great

hope this helps x

marrappa, thank you for support. I am 30 weeks now. Still a long way to go.
I totally agree, maternity dresses makes you look bigger than you really are. I dont recognise myself at all.
And none of my friends or relatives understands, they all says how ungrateful I am feeling this way

It infuriates me how you're "meant" to suddenly become some kind of pregnancy saint and not a human being when pregnant. Why is it ungrateful and wrong to want to have a nice dress? Its not hurting the baby ffs. So sexist. They don't tell dads to be they have to forget their entire personality!!

As for being grateful... I've had rants at people. Just because I want to look nice doesn't mean I take my baby's health for granted... Why would it!?!?

Maternity wear is dire and a rip off. I have taken to "one size fits all" holiday maxis with a belt, or deliberately slouchy t-shirts over maternity jeans... Not being a fan of linen and stripes.
Accessories and make up are the thing for me! They make all the difference. If I have my hair and make up done and my (flat, sigh) shoes and bag are smart I feel much better. I also try to wear statement necklaces and so on.

As for being bigger... The way I see it it isn't me, iegnancy. Some people ping back, some do slimming world, some buy a new wardrobe in thei new size -they all look good. I'll cope. Provided "normal" clothing doesn't only consist of linen trousers, stripy off spotty tops or "bump" themed "comedy" t-shirts I'll be happy!!!!

I feel vile, I try and do things like go for a blowdry or have my nails done to make myself feel better xx