I'm a terrible parent to ds because of this pregnancy

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Whinging ahead just so you're warned!

Until school starts in September it's just me and ds from 7am till 9pm 7 days a week due to dh's work commitments.

And I'm so fucking tired. I'm exhausted by midday every day and taking a nap is nigh on impossible - I end up dozing on the sofa with the tv on for ds although he now begs me to "not go to sleep please mummy". The last few days I've been really headachey and just generally feeling like shit. Ds is having a crap time of it and I'm feeling so guilty because it's all my fault.

So annoyed at myself.

What age is the child. If he's old enough perhaps explain that the baby growing in mummy's belly makes her super tired as the baby has to grow and it will get better in a few weeks time so he understands your not trying to ignore him and leave him to play on his own for no reason.

Can you encourage him to nap, maybe mummy and son nap times and after you can do something fun.

Are there any kids' clubs or activity sessions at local leisure centres, libraries etc? The kind that are run by trained childcare so you could leave him for an hour or two - maybe with a little friend? Of course there'll be a cost but the short 'clubs' (as opposed to childcare) tend to be focused on a hobby or sport.
That way you might be able to get a couple of hours nap while he's there, but instead of it being boring for him it can be a treat/fun day out with his friend?

Thank you for the replies. I've been a bit better today thankfully! And I'm going to look into those play scheme type things and see if I can find any where I can drop him for a couple of house and run off quick!

He's 4 and has been as understanding as he can be expected to be but it's awful to hear him beg me to play with him... Reminding myself that that's why I'm going though pregnancy again so he can have someone else to play with!