I just want to share.... I don't know what else to do....
I am in shock and so much stress and feeling low low down... My husband and 5-year-old beautiful son are keeping me afloat right now...
Over 6 weeks ago I had a m/c. Was supposed to have ERPC but everything happened naturally in the end. Both me and my husband wanted to start straight away, especially since some of my friends got pregnant again straight after m/c.
In mid-June I started spotting, was feeling all over the place emotionally, nausea, boobs hurting, all that jazz... I was in denial this could have been another pregnancy as was so scared I'd be losing that one too because of the spotting.
Last week my friend told me to POAS as it seems I was pregnant again. And she was right - BFP. Last Wednesday had HCG levels checked - 1833, then Friday - HCG @ 2500. On Wednesday I also had a scan and nothing was seen so they invited me for another scan which I had yesterday.
Over the weekend I started bleeding heavily and passed clots so I knew it was all gone. I could feel something wasn't right....
And to my surprise, yesterday, on the screen, I could see my tiny little baby!?!?!?! I was in SHOCK I couldn't believe it... I think I actually said something like "Holy Shit" in front of the consultant!!!
UNTIL.... she told me the reason I'm bleeding is because I have got something called a Cesarean Scar Pregnancy - an extremely rare ectopic pregnancy which holds over 80% of danger to my life if I decide to go ahead with it, including ruptured uterus, not being able to ever have children again, hysterectomy, Placenta accreta, I can bleed to death.
So I've got 2 weeks to miscarry this pregnancy, which apparently is the best way for it, to wait if it happens naturally... (another scan in 2 weeks time), however if the pregnancy is viable at that scan, I have to terminate pregnancy. I've got my loving husband and my son who I don't even want to think about what would they do if I wasn't with them anymore...
I have read of cases where women carried through with this type of pregnancy but it most likely ended with hysterectomy or delivery through a life-threatening c-section that lasted 4 hours...
I feel horrible... so many thoughts are going through my head at the moment... I'm trying to take a day to rest... I'm currently off work because of my back (slipped disk) and during this time off this would have been my second miscarriage!!!
I didn't deserve this....
