Don't know how I will cope, I am so stupid

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Have name changed but am regular poster please don't say if you recognise me. I have just found out I am pregnant my youngest are six month old twins, I also have three other children. I just don't know how I will cope and can't stop crying.
I had sex twice since my twins were born , both times using contraception , I can't get my head round how I can be pregnant! Abortion isn't an option for religious reasons.
I feel so guilty that I won't have the time for my twins who won't even be a year old when this baby is born. Then there is the practical issues like a triple buggy, no room in the car etc. financially it is going to be impossible. I had pre eclampsia with the twins and I am scared it will happen again. Just really can't cope.

You will cope, of course you will. It will be hard, but you can do it.

And you aren't stupid honey. Not at all.

I don't think I will, I have a health condition that has got much worse since my twin pregnancy. I also have pnd. I do feel stupid, contraception failure happens to teenagers not 30 year old women.

You need to go to the doctors then my love. Have you told your mum or husband?

Just for now, you don't have to cope with a baby and twins.

You've 9 months to get your head round it.

You don't have to plan for the future, just let the news settle in.

You will cope, of course you will. The baby will not be here tomorrow.

For now, lots of support, lots of honesty, spend some time trying to take your mind off it to if you can get a babysitter and have an evening off?

Are you having therapy or ADs for your PND?

No Annunziata I haven't been to the doctors maybe it's not pnd but I think it is I can't stop crying , feel so overwhelmed , keep having dreams thoughts that harm will come to one of the babies. I haven't had time to go to the doctors am so busy with the twins and my other dc. My dh is great but he works so isn't around in the day times. I told my dh about the pregnancy he is very supportive and reassuring he wants to give up work ( he could claim carers allowance for me) but I really don't want him to do that. I haven't to my mum she told me I was stupid for having the twins , although that pregnancy was planned the twin part came as a shock.
Knackered yes I am only six weeks so still lots of time but I am just so panicky. Not taking AD's it's my Hv that suggested the pnd. An evening off sounds lovely but I wouldn't leave them , I couldn't relax plus I am breast feeding.

You need to take the ADs. If you were diabetic you would take the insulin, yes? I don't know about breast feeding, but if you post on the board here the ladies will know exactly what you can and can't take. No wonder you are panicky, you mustn't blame yourself for that.

Your DH sounds lovely. Sit down with him and work out your sums and see if carer's allowance is a good suggestion.

I know you are worried and in shock, it is no surprise. But you can and you will cope. I had 6 under 8, I promise you I can understand how you feel.

Have a cup of tea and try to sleep. It will be better in the morning

You poor thing maybe your husband could give up work for a year if you are not in the best of health 3 babies is hard this happened to somebody I know but she had the single baby first, then twins, you need to go to the dr speak to your hv too, oh and your not stupid