Family party - am i being selfish?

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I'm currently 9 weeks pregnant and have had a lot of issues with heavy bleeds over the past month. My husband is due to have a family party back home (300 miles away) soon for 5 days- it's been in the works for 3 months and is a big thing as all his (huge) family are coming, and will be the first time they meet our son, who's nearly 2.
I'm not going due to the risks as adv by doctor recently. We've just told them and i told husband to go with our son without me, which he's agreed to. The thing is I don't want him to go as i'm worried something will happen when he's not here. He wants me to get a friend to stay but I haven't told anyone i'm pregnant yet as don't feel ready.
I haven't told him how i feel, but i'm really silently willing him to decide not to go. Should i say anything? Or is that selfish and should i just try and get someone else to stay with me? I'm probably being paranoid but with my son i had a serious bleed when he was away with work so that's probably made me worry more...

On the one hand, I can see why he would want to go - massive family event, chance for everyone to meet DS, however, I have had a MC at eleven weeks and whilst um not saying this will the outcome for you, it was a truly awful experience and one that I wholly relied on DH for.

I wont go into the nitty gritty but I would have been totally broken if he werent here to help me through it. The aches and pains I had the week or teo after it were similar to post birth with dd too.

If I were in your positon I would insist he remains behind. And I say that as someone who usually on these trips says "let them go YABU".

Thanks TIBH - I was sure i was going to be told to get on with it. I'm really sorry about your MC, it must have been horrible, and so much worse if your partner wasn't there. I've had 2 MC but they were much earlier. I'm going to tell him tonight then.
I had to google YABU as i'm not familiar with the abbreviations on this forum!

Honestly before the MC id have probably said "just go, if the worst happens, it happens, it probably wont anyways" and quite honestly it probably wont. but it isnt a good thing to go through alone.

I had no prior signs apart from a bit of brown spotting arpund week nine which im told is normal in successful pregnancies too, so it was a shock, whichprobably added to the trauma.

I keep.my fingers crossed that this little bean sticks andyou go on to have a successful pregnancy. Im.24 weeks now, after giving myself a few months recovery (mentally as well as physically), and its good to be pg again but I am a worryer so cant wait for delivery day!

I hppe he comes around OP!

I'm fairly sure your husband would feel awful if anything happened and he wasn't there but i can understand why he is if you have said for him too, even if it is good natured. Even if everything is fine (and hopefully it will be) it's a tough time for you never mind worrying alone as well as missing your husband and son. Please just be honest with him and I'm sure he will understand as I can't imagine him wanting to leave you and can imagine he only is because he thinks you want him too

Thanks :) Congrats on your pregnancy & hope it all goes smoothly; I'm sure it will. Anyone who says pregnancy is an enjoyable experience is crackers IMO - it's one of the most stressful things ever!

Just seen your post Barbsta. Thanks, I will explain to him later. I shouldn't have said to go, but it was one of those empty sentences, when really I wanted him to insist on staying.