I tend to be a bit of a lurker, but I really could do with your thoughts.
My DH and I decided we would TTC about six months ago, but we were a bit flaky with the whole BD-timing until this May when we went on holiday and ... crikey did we BD.
When we got home, around 7DPO, I started getting some pretty unusual symptoms sudden and violent nausea, dizziness etc to the extent that I POAS 13DPO. The test was negative, and AF started the next day.
Ho hum, I thought and restarted my Clearblue monitor. And then things started to get even weirder.
My chest did not deflate as it normally does after AF; in fact, it has just got bigger, more sore and the heat coming off my boobs could melt an iceberg (I reckon I have gone up a bra size in about three weeks). I had the most unreal bout of itching skin on my arms, legs, and stomach. My facial skin has changed almost overnight and is flaky and strange. My lower stomach has gone kinda hard and I have been having some funny pulses in my cervix and my uterus. I have also got a mouth ulcer for the first time in about fifteen years.
All this, maybe I could ignore. But the results from my Clearblue monitor just made everything stranger. They stayed at a static "medium" from day 6 to day 20. I appear to have had no LH surge at all this month, contrary to my results from the last six months when I always had an LH surge. Now I know that hCG may show up as an LH presence, so I didn't really know what to make of the results. Anyway, just to check, I POAS again about a week ago. Result: negative.
But here is the thing: I cannot shake off the feeling that I am pregnant. It's just "there", almost like a voice in my head. I keep trying to ignore it, but it pops up when I am least expecting it in the shower, for example and it is really a powerful feeling.
Logically, I know I am extremely unlikely to actually be pregnant. I had AF, I have done two tests: both negative. I have not gone so far down the road of TTC that I could say I was a prime candidate for a phantom pregnancy.
However, there is another angle to this. The last time I was pregnant was 18 years ago; thinking back, I remember my first test somewhere at six weeks was negative but, afterwards, when the pregnancy was confirmed when I missed my second AF, I presumed I had accidentally screwed up the first test -- but what if I didn't? The other thing is that with my other pregnancies, my boobs went crazy almost immediately, as they are doing now.
I just don't know what to think ... am I pregnant and, for some reason, my HCG levels don't rise enough to give a positive until later? Am I having some sort of strange mental episode? Am I suddenly pre-menopausal (I am 38)? Have I eaten something that has sent my hormones crazy?
Do you have any thoughts about this? I would be so grateful for any anecdotes or bits of advice.