Yesterday, after a terrible time with an eye infection that has led to a ruptured eyeball, and subsequently a corneal transplant under general anaesthetic DURING my pregnany, I have been told I have glaucoma.
My eye pressure is so high that it is damaging my optic nerve and despite "safer" medicines they cannot bring the pressure down.
Normally they would give tablets which would solve it but I've been told they would likely harm the baby so I have refused them. The consultant said if the risk is higher to the mother they like to try them.
Sadly in my bad eye I can't see much more than hand movements in front of my face anymore so I don't think it is a risk worth taking.
I am now having laser surgery instead (local abaesthetic only) on Friday to try to help.
Through all of this I don't feel like I have been able to focus on my baby and I am feeling so rough due to reflux, lack of sleep and pelvic pain.
Everyone keeps tellin me I am "so brave" but I am not. I just want this nightmare to end, for my eye to stop wrecking itself and respond to some kind of treatment. And to hold my baby in my arms safe and sound.