Helloo!
I'm 6 weeks pregnant with my second baby, my partner and I are excited despite having the usual pregnancy worries and we're making plans to move in together (these plans were in motion anyway but more imminent than before!)
HOWEVER, one thing in particular is bothering me. With my daughter, now 3, I was a single parent from the second I knew I was pregnant. My partner and I have been together for most of her life however we have never lived together and he has had very little to do with her upbringing. She considers him a friend rather than a father figure.
I'm worried about how I'm going to cope with being in a parenting partnership, I know that sounds silly. My partner and I are both parents already and both have very different parenting styles, I'm obviously very used to parenting my way and having very little input from elsewhere.
Im also really frustrated...during my last pregnancy my ex was a prize arsehole and said some awful things, my partner is the polar opposite and is (so far!) a wonderful, caring man who loves me and our baby and is visibly excited at the thought of our future together. But because of the awful experience of last time I am SO paranoid that it's going to go wrong and I'm going to end up in the same position I was before.
I feel awful for feeling like this and I'm so angry at myself for letting myself let my ex ruin another pregnancy when I started off so determined to enjoy it this time!
I don't know if this post makes sense, it's just a kind of hormonal, verbal vomit but hey ho! I feel better just for getting it out :)