Slight hormonal melt down!

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So I have just had an utter sobbing melt down about a photo on the dreaded Facebook. It was a group photo taken over the weekend and it's just one of those pictures, bad angle, unflattering and I'm sat looking like an over weight fishwife.

I am 12 weeks pregnant and have put on a bit of weight but only a few lbs when I was booked in a couple of weeks ago. Usually I would write a bad photo off as just that, laugh at it and move on. Today it has resulted in an utter sobbing melt down! I think it's a symptom of what's been in my head for a weeks tho. I have always battled with my weight and have been up and down for years, before I got pregnant I had lost a stone and was down to 13ish stone (I am 5.9) and was just starting to feel like 'me' again and now I'm so scared of losing that.

My BMI is 29 so I know I need to be careful and I am being but if I'm honest I feel horrid. I feel huge and unattractive, I am dreading how I will get along as I get bigger. I want to enjoy my pregnancy and I always thought I would love it but I just feel like a blob! I am eating healthy and now I'm not so knackered all the time will be swimming a few times a week.

I don't really know what I'm looking for from this but I just feel so horrid this evening that I was hoping that someone could tell me that it will get better! Failing that a (gentle) slap to tell me to woman up and I'm making a bloody human!

Hormones will make you cry over the silliest thing! That's normal.
It's also normal to worry about the changes pregnancy wreaks on your body. Especially in the society we live in - where it's all about being "thin" and having the perfect body shape (despite the fact that doesn't exist).
It's hard at 12 weeks too because you don't necessarily look obviously pregnant. Once your bump becomes obviously baby you will feel better about it. Try to focus on the amazing feat your body is achieving right now - you are growing a new person!

I just cried loads at the end of Dirty Dancing. Normally I'd be still laughing about the 'Nobody puts baby in the corner...' corny line.

Yep, I get tearful and I get the rage. I have an obvious bump now which I adore but now worried about stretch marks etc. I think it's very common and normal so please be kind to yourself.

Thanks guys, it's good to know it's not just me! I feel very shallow being so silly over how I look when i should be concentrating on making sure I'm doing the best thing for the baby.

RAF I think you're right about feeling different when I look more pregnant, right now I just look a bit thick round the middle!

I agree withRAF too. I'm nearly 14 wks an have looked 8 months pregnant wen I stand up since about 8 wks! I say to dh that I feel fat and he says you re not fat you're pregnant, but my middle has expanded in all directions and its not obviously a baby bump yet! Hormones defo don't help - im normally quite a strong person but am very teary atm. Also feeling self conscious when your body is changing is normal I guess. Sorry - don't think any of this helps other than to say, I know how you feel, you'r not on your own, and I think its normal! xx

It does help htbftm! I think it's not helped by the fact that we went to a party at the weekend and non of my nice party clothes fitted (that makes me sound about 8) so felt a bit big all weekend. God, I'm really not usually this shallow! I shall get over myself a bit. 12 week scan tomorrow so maybe it's all my nervousness and excitement being channelled in to something!

Aww how exciting! I had mine on Tuesday! it was amazing but I cried like a baby! hope you have a great day! x