I think I just found out that I am pregnant for the second time. Faint BFP, and still a bit of spotting, so not counting chickens just yet. It took 11 months of trying to get pregnant the first time, and lots of vitamins, acupuncture, ovulation sticks etc!! DH was keen to start trying, and we both expected it would take at least 6 months, and so thought we could start trying in a relaxed way. Anyway, it happened first month, which was a complete shock.
The problem is I am also a bit panicked about the thought of a second baby. My DD1 is just 16 months, and although she would be over 2 by the time the baby arrived, it just feels very soon. We went to see a friend today who had a new baby, and when I held him, she was really upset....I know she would come around to the idea and adapt and we could prepare her, but I just feel guilty. The other problem is that I have gone back to work on a casual basis, as there had been no other permanent roles to apply for since coming back from maternity leave, and I have been looking for last 9 months. I thought therefore, that I may as well start trying for another baby and I would muddle through with casual work. But, in the last week I have been approached by people and offered two interviews, for end of June, and now I don't know whether to go for them and whether to say anything or not.
I know in many ways I am very lucky and feel guilty for writing this, and after 11 months of trying for DD1 I do understand the heartache that every bfn brings, but some reassurance/shared experience would be lovely.