anger out of control please advise/ hold hand

[ithoughtofitfirst]

Today I absolutely lost my shit in front of my 2 year old. As in screaming, crying, throwing things. I know this is absolutely unacceptable and feel probably the lowest I have in a long time about it.

I'm not even sure whether I should go into specifics but I think I'm basically under a LOT of stress and a person of a somewhat sensitive, fragile disposition as it is... plus pregnant and hormonal.

I do CBT and meditate, I run and eat healthily, I take anti-depressants but I just feel I can't cope anymore :(

I think it's time for a trip to the GP isn't it?

Hugs. Visit to gp won't hurt will it

If you do want to go into specifics, people here are more than willing to listen

Go to your GP - if he or she isn't supportive go and see another one.

Hope you start to feel better soon.

You can ask your MW for a perinatal psych nurse.

Hormones can play havoc with MH even when well managed - they won't judge.

I was getting obsessive and phobic and mine was a real help.

Thanks everyone. I have left a message with the MW and will see what she suggests. She will probably say GP to be fair. I think it's a post stressful time kind of relapse... but when that shift happens it feels chemical and unrelated to anything. I just feel really empty. Don't want to live, don't wan't to die just don't want anything. If I didn't run I doubt i'd have the energy for anything. And even running is a massive chore atm but I know if I stop I will cease to function. My mum is coming tomorrow so at least she can help me with my boy.

Definitely get yourself to the doctors, hopefully they'll know how best to help. Pregnancy is hard at the best times, never mind with extra stress and MH problems on top of it.

Don't beat yourself up about earlier, It's done now. Tomorrow is a new day. Do whatever you need to do to chill out tonight and start again tomorrow.

You poor thing. Hope they get back to you tomorrow

You definitely shouldn't give yourself a hard time over this which I know is easier said then done, I know because I've had this anger too. Definitely don't bottle it as it never ends well but find someone outside the situation the vent to always helps

Unfortunately, pregnancy hormones can make any stress or problem 10 times worse. I have flown off the handle in ways I'm ashamed of too. Even when a reaction would be justified I have taken it way too far as I just couldn't hand the emotions. My wall has a lovely hole in it where I 'dropped' dps beer bottle on it! And my poor dsds had to witness dp and I have a proper full on argument (or hear anyway as we went the bedroom) the other day with me screaming and threatening him, which was not cool... even though he had been an arse.

I think you'll feel better later, but rest assured it is to some extent normal, especially if you have strong hormones and emotions normally too!