first time pregnancy worries

[aley1989]

Hello everyone.
I am new here
I found out on the 17th april that I am pregnant, I basically missed a period and took a test when I was just a week late, that came back negative. A few days later I went to the doctor she gave me a urine test but I jusr couldn't go I she said she think its just stressed.
I left it another week and my period still didn't come, So I took another doctors appt. by this point I was like 20 days late. She sent me to the hospital for bloods tests to do with my ovaries, hormones etc and also for a urine test for pregnancy.
I was convinved I was not pregnant. I called my gp the next day to see when was best to call back for my bloods and the receptionist told me that I was pregnant, I was totally shocked.
Since then I have done around 5 cheap pregnancy tests and also a clear blue digital conception indicator test, all strong possitives and the clear blue 3+ conception.
however, I still find it so hard to belive I am pregnant, I have even let my mind run far enough to convince myself I instead have some kind of tumor or cyst that's giving me these positive results.
I know it may sound crazy.
I think it may be because all of feb me and my boyfriend where trying for a baby, then march we lost someone very close very suddenly so the trying went out the window and we only had sex like 3 times , unprotected.
I also worry im going to start my period whenever I go to the toilet!
I have some symptoms but not as many as others, I do feel sick first thing but I haven't vomited yet, My body is more tired, breasts have grown and get sore and I have been hungier, and my hormones have increased but I always get worried when I don't feel symptoms and fear the worst and I am scared im going to go for my scan and there will be no baby there, or worse.
I don't have my midwife apt until may 7th, I have considered going to the doctor but then I think maybe I should just hang on to see my midwife...
does anyone else feel like this or have you?

Congratulations!

Both my pregnancies I spent ages doubting the pregnancy test results. I also felt convinced I would get my period anytime which wasn't helped by occasional mild period type pains. I didn't have any sickness with my first and very little with my second. To be honest both times I didn't really believe it properly until I saw for myself at the 12 week scan! I think the shock is pretty normal. Honestly I tried not to think about it too much initially and eventually it sunk in (especially when my period still hadn't shown up weeks later!).

Hi Aley - congratulations as well! I did about six pregnancy tests after I got my first positive, and then another one a week later, and another a week after that!

I'm sorry you've had such a stressful time of it so far. It's very common to have the feelings you're experiencing. I was convinced that something would have gone wrong by the time of the scan, or that I had imagined the whole thing, and kept telling myself to prepare for the worst. I didn't have any morning sickness, with other symptoms coming and going and had several bouts of bleeding during early pregnancy. DD is now a bouncing 8 month old! Good luck, do try and keep calm, and yes, seek out a midwife to ask advice if you're concerned about anything - that's what they're there for. Oh, I also found Mumsnet a lifesaver in the early days (still do, tbh) as there is always someone who has been through the same thing as you and can give advice, or just another perspective on it.

Thanks for the replies so far, I can see its definatly a very helpful forum, I haven't told anyone yet and don't want to until I have had my scan, so I feel kind of like I don't have anyone to talk to as my boyfriend doesn't really get it, but he is supportive but im more a negative thinker who always expects the worst and hes the opposite!
but thanks ill TRY to relax and hope next Wednesday hurrys up!