Please help me enjoy the last few weeks of pregnancy

[PurplePunkPrincess]

This is my 3rd, I am 32+4. I have a 7 year old and a 5 year old.

My previous pregnancies were not fun, but not as bad as this. And I never had any issues with feeling hormonal, just nausea, tiredness and the like. But they were bad enough that I did decide although I wanted another one, that I wasn't sure I could do it again.

This time I had planned a home birth because I didn't want to go to hospital and after the first 16 week of nausea I started to enjoy pregnancy. I was listening to hypnotherapy relaxation everyday, exercising, eating well, and feeling quite good and happy.

I had a bit of a (false?) labour at 24 weeks, was given steroids and drugs and stayed in hospital for 4 days. I was put on anti depressants about the same time, but that has been an ongoing issue.

I was then told between the positive fFn (fibrosis?) the anti depressants, hospital test and constant glucose and protein in my urine there is no way they would be happy for me to have a home birth.

The sickness has come back, and although I have been put on anti sickness pills, 3 weeks ago, I still feel awful everyday and haven't been eating that much or that well as a result.

I've also developed spd again and think I may have pulled a muscle, just under my boobs, it really hurts especially when I move or try and sit up.

I feel like I have run a marathon and got my period.

But, I think one of the worst things right now is that I'm an emotional mess. I have felt too sick to swallow my anti depressants in weeks. But I don't feel massively depressed like I did before. I just feel like emotional.

I get upset everyday and often over silly things, and it's causing problems with my dp.

I walked out a few days ago in tears, and I told my dp that I didn't feel loved or well treated and we managed to talk (eventually) and deal with everything. He has been amazing Tbf to him. But I am in tears because he made himself tea and didn't offer me one this morning, he's actually just really tired. Regardless of whether or not that was a bit rude, it's not worth me crying over!! And he's cooking a roast today and making an Easter cake while I have a bath. I really can't complain!

But I still can't help but cry, over everything, I feel like an awful mother and a useless partner. I barely leave the house and feel like I'm not looking after the baby properly.

I need to get a grip! People keep saying 'oh not long left now!' But knowing I still have 8-10 weeks left feels hideous.

I spend an hour or so everyday in the bath, to listen to music, cry, relieve some pain etc. I'm starting to feel too big and sore to keep doing this.

Please tell me I will feel better soon!

Oh purple you sound so sad. [Thanks]

I know you say that you don't feel depressed, but it doesn't necessarily feel the same each time an episide takes hold. And feeling this low isn't good. Please go back to your gp and talk again, about potentially resuming your meds and how you are feeling.

And please pop along to the hyperemesis support thread in this section, it's known as a condition that can make you feel incredibly down and the great ladies over there will be able to give you the right sort of virtual cuddles and wisdom that is needed with HG. I found it so reassuring and comforting to just talk with other folk who knew what it felt like to go through such awful awful sickness.

Good luck on the rest of your pregnancy xx

The [Thanks] was supposed to be a of course- sorry!

How horrible- I think you should take every day as it comes. Thank dp when he does something nice, try and explain that you're just feeling totally fed up but it won't be forever. Rest as much as you can- could you set a goal of one thing you want to get done each day to try and make it feel successful? Obviously these can be really small like- watch a film with your children, play a game, read a book?

Try not to let the sickness take over- I've been constantly sick from 6weeks-28 weeks and is horrible but there is normally something I can stomach- toast/salt and vinegar crisps/cereal/ice cream?

Keep going, if you aren't able to take medication might be worth going back to gp seeing if anything they can do to help?

You're not alone, Purple. I am 34+1 and utterly cheesed off. Permanently uncomfortable, in pain with SPD, emotional wreck - I also keep having meltdowns with dh, fixating on the things he isn't doing rather than all the amazing things he is doing. I then feel so guilty. I don't know if I can suggest anything to help you enjoy your last few weeks, but I can relate to what you are going through, basically feeling physically and emotionally whacked. My baby is measuring off the scale big and I don't know how I can possibly get any bigger.

I would definitely talk to your GP about resuming the ADs, or get a referral to perinatal mental health services. I have a MH nurse come to see me every 3 weeks, and she is one person I can completely offload to - dh would of course listen and understand but the nurse is 'neutral' and not too close ifyswim. Talking to her is making the difference in my case to not needing to take ADs at the moment, but I wouldn't hesitate to go back on them if I needed to (and we are re-evaluating this on a 3-weekly basis).

This is my first pregnancy, and it has been a real eye opener as to how tough it can be. Just think, this is the last stretch now. What is helping me is to streamline my activities, and not ask too much of myself. I don't know how feasible that is for you with two children, but go easy on yourself and if you can ask for help, or are offered it, take it. Good luck!

Not really got much advice on enjoying the last few weeks I struggle with pregnancy and don't find it an enjoyable experience especially the last few weeks ( not stopped me being 15 weeks with no 4!)
With my last I had really bad spd and cried most days toward the end those last few weeks are really tough especially if you have other children. However I did find the first few weeks a walk in the bloody park after the hellish last few weeks of pregnancy, even the sleep deprevation and never ending feeding really was so much better than those last few weeks!
There is light at the end of the tunnel! :)