suprise pregnancy

[AustinsYummyMummy2008]

So I gave birth and 3 months later found out i was pregnant again! woohoo i get to through it all over again! dont get me wrong my other half is thrilled. i have 2 boys already and a new job :) i had to give up my job to move to be with my other half but fell pregnant so couldnt get one I gave birth gave myself 6 weeks grace lost the baby weight got a new job and felt amazing!! i missed a period :( i was on the pill not always effective huh :( now im 11weeks pregnant with a 6 yr old a 5 month old and the worst morning sickness/nausea in the world! ive only just started my work so i'll prob get laid off when i tell them which makes me so scared and unhappy because i love my new job! i hate being pregnant i hate it!!!! i could cry constantly i never feel good in pregnancy i always feel sick why did this happen! no one even cares im pregnant about 10 times this week peopke have said oh yea forgot you were pregnant!!! including my other half! i feel nothing towards baby just numb! that makes me a bad person doesnt it! ive told everyone its ruined everything i hate it they wont listen they think its a stage and what if i dont change my mind then what?? im left with a poor baby that did nothing wrong but to have an awful person as their mum! my other half thinks if its a girl im going to be fine i think its going to effect everything boy or girl though i know when i find out its a boy because im 100% sure im going to have only boys! that it will be worse i will cry for a very long time because i want no more kids i cant handle the pregnancy or birth, & if its a boy that means i'll have to come to terms that i will never have a girl something i would love! im a girly girl and my other half is a mans man so he has his footy team id love to have my little shopping partner :( never going to happen! i guess im just sad that this time is suppose to be happy so why am i not???

I'm sorry you're going through such tough emotions, I can understand how this has come put of the blue. Add hormones to the equation and no wonder you feel like you do. I don't have advice as such, just didn't want to read and run. I grew up with friends who are 11months apart (brothers) and they were both surprises! Number 3 & 4 for their mum & dad, no 3 - big surprise, number 4 total shock! But of course they are well loved by their parents and they did great. We're in our 30s now :)

Take each day as it comes, you know how much you love your DCs and that love for children isn't limited regardless of what or who they are :) And with work, I'm hoping another mumsnetter will be along with proper, knowledgeable advice but you shouldn't lose your job because you're pregnant. You're going into this as an experienced mum, something I'd love as I panic over the birth of my first! All the best to you & congratulations :)

You're not awful for being stressed about being pregnant. Your hormones are going haywire and it's hard to be positive when you feel so sick. I got pregnant shortly after starting a new job. I felt much better after I had the scan and told them. I think things are always worse in your imaginings. If you were pregnant before you started work you probably won't be entitled to mat pay from your work, but could claim mat allowance. I don't see why they would let you go if your not costing them any money. Am very impressed with you losing your baby weight already.